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2011-06-22 01:12Afternoon TeaOkay dude, this is cool! watch Sora no Woto (animation is done by the same people as K-ON!! and characters are kinda close, but this is not the point!)
The setting seems very interesting to me its like a world after WW3!? the setting has like a mixed culture/ future tech mismatch going on?! so I did some research) if you would like to do a little reading if your interested --> http://forums.animesuki.com/showpost...postcount=1633
I find this interesting
2011-06-21 23:44YunoHmm, my linear focus is all I can be sadly. Oh well, perfect is too much for me anyway. Not really, the forum is being really wilful in regards to it. If I link to it from my site it claims the file is too big. I use it from the link you gave me and it claims invalid. Oh due to being long distance, that makes sense.
I definitely didn't dislike Mahou Sensei Negima, though I believe Chapters at the time didn't have any more books so it slipped from my mind. Now I don't know if I can pick it up.
He was allowed to choose for himself. I like that he was unique like that and could choose for himself. It made him all the more endearing. I can see where you'd get that idea from the movie. Our laws are a bit dated too. It gives mischief makers too much leeway.
P.S. You've never lashed out at anyone? Whoa, I suddenly feel rather foul. I have lashed out at plenty of people. Though I have never claimed I was a 'fair lady' haha. I argue poorly as well, I get very involved and attached to the situation. My anxiety usually chomps me to pieces before I can respond effectively. That is exactly how Shiki was for me as well. I'm glad you liked the song, it's one of my favourites.
P.P.S. It is indeed, and many of us are lonely. I believe you mean that verbal slander or which ever has no merit whatsoever, where as something even as horrible as war can have something out of it? It's an interesting connection and I see it's merits.
I like the control as well, yet some of my characters are so powerfully developed they go against my wishes. My themes in my novels tend to be epic in nature, with all that is required of a fantasy story. The problem is I run out of steam and stop around chapter 17 or so. So close to finishing either one, but I dislike how it turned out. I read the poem and quite liked it. The speaker in the poem mirrored how I might have loved, or at least how I believed it should be.
Yes, rest, eating balanced meals, and self-soothing are the three things that can keep BPD people in check. If we lack one of those three things we're in a bad mood the next day. Today I am in a bad mood. So that might give you an idea on how well I slept. I only photograph nature. I don't like to photograph people. Thank you, though I am quite amateur I am happy you liked them. The area I photographed was Beacon Hill Park.
2011-06-21 19:31papermario13689A good mixture of both produces the perfect concoction of acceptability. I'm curious; any luck with that image? I tried it on a different forum and it was clean. I believe calling me in was due to the fact that my courses this semester were distant.
I agree; most harem anime shows I dislike, but the aforementioned Mahou Sensei Negima had likable characters and an odd charm to it that I enjoyed. That and the fact that the main idea isn't even a harem, albeit there being a ton of characters.
They were quite well made, weren't they? I enjoyed how the one alienated robot found the laws to be broken and followed the humans in the fight. It deeply symbolized how our laws themselves are broken and we must learn to accept other people's beliefs time and time again.
P.S. That is what I fear as well. I've never truly lashed out at anyone before, but I'm afraid of what I may do. Don't get me wrong, debate is an interesting activity and while I'm not very good at it, I do enjoy a session of verbal squabbling or raconteuring. That sounds an awful lot like how I went through Gambling Apocalypse Kaiji; the animation itself was quite strange, but the story and characters draw you in from the word go and don't let up. I quite liked that song; it was a mixture for me of sorrowful Professor Layton music alongside with the pained music from Gambling Apocalypse Kaiji.
P.P.S. Not a problem; it sounds like a good reason to start such a program, but there's always a good and bad way of handling things. They might as well force everyone to fight in a third World War with weapons, as it'd have the same effect as the verbal attacking that we do to each other already. Not saying that war should ever be an option, but in the analogical aspect of things at least the first World Wars saved us from economic depression. What does verbal assault do for us?
That's the core aspect of writing that interests so many- the idea that you are in complete control. Don't like a character? You switch their personality or take them out entirely. Changed mood? Start a new story or change the atmosphere in the middle. I almost always write dark themed stories, but for this month I wasn't really feeling like it. Ergo, I ended up composing a short, but hopefully concise poem.
Hopefully you had a good sleep- rest is important, after all. Thank you for sharing your photographs with me; it seems like nature itself is the best thing to capture of film, isn't it? Great use of lighting and angles, and I hope you'll keep this in your interests for a long time.
2011-06-21 18:58YunoI recalled that I was to show you some of my photography. I have uploaded it to this photobucket so you can view them. The link I will only keep until you've told me you have viewed them.
2011-06-21 06:17YunoThis is true. Multi-focus can be seen as wishy washy, where single focus can be too intense. Hmm. It told me the file size is too large when I tried a url. I will try this link you provided and see what happens. I was never called in for my grades, they must have been stellar then.
I dislike harem anime. It is too much like an accidental womanizer using other girls. Yet they stare and get jealous as he targets the main girl only to waver and stir up their hopes again. Ah, I will give it another watch once I finish the series I am on.
Yes! I was so worried about the robots when I heard the laws. I confess I found them so cute.
P.S. I am like that, sometimes I view arguing as too troublesome. When I argue, I can't control how much emotion I am putting out. So as I argue my emotion escalates to dangerous levels. So I just stay away. I know some people who like to debate and argue, they do it for fun. Shiki was incredible. At first I stopped it due to the animation being.. odd. Then when I heard of Sunako and how she is I related to her strongly. So I kept watching it. Shiki's music is amazing. There is one song I think expresses how my general state inside me feels like. When I hear it I go "Yes that is me for sure." It's this one: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmhZkLxGmTI (Note the title).
P.P.S. Sorry for the mix up. It is better this way, because many bad things were happening. It's super easy to manipulate someone with BPD to do what you say. So they're hoping to get awareness. Then open facilities to treat it. This is true, but I can "not judge the judging" as a technique in DBT. Meaning I try to avoid being hurt by their judgements with self-soothing, and distress tolerance techniques. They're really arming us these days. Also, I feel sad for those who can't free themselves from judging. I feel like people worry so much about image, age, colour, type, style, interests, and beliefs to the point of alienating each other. Yet to me everyone seems insufferably lost.
It is! I even made my super good pure hearted character turn twisted. His goodness corrupted itself making him purge others. Yet in the end my main book still sits unwritten. Thank you for the encouragement. I think I will wait until after thursday. With that I should be more focused. In the mean time I will refresh my mental pallate.
Hmm, yes. I think that is best. Though I confess as I become more talkative I worry, the anxiety gets so bad I can sweat. I am sleepy too, I should be in bed. I had a wonderful sleep schedule, but it has failed due to night terrors. I'll sleep sometime soon though. Thank you for being considerate of me, and I will talk to you tomorrow.
2011-06-21 05:44YunoIndeed, so sometimes my thinking is very linear. I don't mind it, but it can be irritating to those who want my focus on other things. I do like it, though for some reason when I upload it it loses quality. I wonder why that is? It looks amazing on my computer, but when I upload it there is a fuzziness in the image. That’s excellent that you are trying out poems. I will have to take a look at your entry. I'm glad it's good news, I bet it was nerve racking?
It seemed... Shallow. Like it was your typical in-decisive maybe her or maybe her kind of guy. I can't stand those because there rampid in real life. I like people who cease and make something theirs and commit to it. Rather than wavering, drives me bonkers. Hmm, I saw a bit of that but lost interest when he started kissing all those girls (major trigger for me). I agree and it was the prefect show for the situations I was in. It was light-hearted and non-triggering. It made for a great series for the time I was in. Season two might be hard for me because the music is lacking? I am not sure, I watched up to episode 13 I believe? It wasn't dropped more like I moved twice and then was in the hospital so I lost touch with it.
Then a person becomes like a machine. Reminds me of I,Robot when the mainframe thing is taking over and says "Do you not see the logic of my plan?" and the free robot says "Yes, but it just seems too...heartless."
P.s. That is true, and I like your method in dealing with it. Though I tend to butt heads if someone lacks virtue or kindness. I avoid that which is wicked, since I struggle so much with my own stuff. Wickedness that couldn't change so to speak. Hmm, nor I. I have been catching up on some movies lately. I'm the same way with anime too, when I watch a series I listen for music as well as content. Like Shiki... I have waited so long for their soundtrack.
P.P.S. Sorry my wording got fubbled. I mean that a movement started to help BPD people because our suicide rates were escalating so fast. So May (ironically -.-) is BPD awareness month. Indeed, I am quickly labelled this to anyone in the support: "This is Sofiel, she is BPD, PTSD, DID, OCD, and Social Anxiety." Rather than "This is Sofiel she is a writer." They would indeed single me out, I have a record also. No one has the right to judge any of us really. In DBT our golden rule is "non-judgemental" we've even got a unit on non-judgemental. Yet we learn this and are judged constantly.
It's really a good quote, I have it written in several places to remind me. I still have options. Dune is filled with very positive existentialist quotes. Hmm, that is exactly what happens with me as well. Yet there are these two characters, no matter where I put them they want to be lovers. I made them enemies, siblings, same gender, yet they still seem to connect. So I think I will take a break. I don't really have too much pressure to get my book published. They don't think I'll actually do it anyway due to being mentally disabled. Jokes on them when the 23rd rolls around.
Yes, I do have much to share, but of late I tend to be subdued of late.
2011-06-21 05:00YunoThank you, it's actually really good for me to do that. Since if I am engaged with something I tend to dwell? I can't find the right words. It's like some kind of focus. Then when the focus shifts it's gone. Say I bought ingredients for cake. I am constantly thinking of those ingredients until I do something with them... Erm, hmm sort of like that. It's why I am dwelling on the 23rd so much haha. This is your first signature ever!? Thank you so much, I don't know too much about K-on just the first season and part of the second. Though this has an acrostic poem to boot! I shall definitely use it thank you~ That’s great news! I am glad you did so well and with rainbows spewing colours.
Oh okay, I have some of those sites listed. So I will take a peek at them. Hmm, I think the only series to fail me at episode one was "Love Hina" I disliked it from the start. Then I heard how it goes and was glad I didn't go further with it. That’s neat that K-on went like that for you. The music is nice, and I typically like that style. I don't recall the first season I watched it during hard times, but I remember it cheering me up.
Exactly, and these thoughts mirror mine and how I interpreted what they said in DBT exactly. People have their perception of the truth and so they apply their logic to it. Yet the real truth is pure without perceptions attached to it. So in DBT we speak "our truth" and never claim it to be absolute.
P.S. Hmm, I have always wondered how to purge the evil around us. I mean I just dislike it so much. I often run into it when I am not ready and do my best to get away. Yet to be honest I am just so tired after all I have been through. So I have very little patience for debauchery. Indeed, so many problems behind the scenes. I normally don't follow films closely as they're making it. The Hobbit and Starwars was my exceptions though. What about you?
P.P.S. It's good, because it's rare for people to be understanding to BPD people. We're so horribly stigmatized they've started a BPD awareness movement in Canada. Our suicide rate for this disorder went through the roof due to it. I've thought over all the things that were said to me when people grow angry. I read each line carefully. I want to understand, but in the end it is so over powering when they're mad at me. I isolate because I find the more I get close to people I hurt them or them me. Or I get used. What I heard is this: I am callous, I am manipulative, I am insulting, I am a monster, I have rage issues, I have a bad attitude, I am toxic, I am selfish, I am incapable of caring, I use people, I am difficult, and I am dangerous. Those are the most common phrases I hear. Yet normally I just watch shows, play video games, write, and draw. However, people seem desirous to share their displeasure of me. To be honest I feel like I am just really clumsy when I deal with people.
It's 20 people with BPD in one room trouble is almost a must. Astronomy is so amazing. I still look up things for Astronomy even though I am not in school. I agree with you, which brings me to my favourite quote in Dune: "Any path that narrows future possibilities may become a lethal trap. Humans are not threading their way through a maze; they scan a vast horizon filled with unique opportunities. The narrowing viewpoint of the maze should appeal only to creatures with their noses buried in the sand." Hmm, this is very sound advice. I have been writing novels exclusively since January. It always turns out the same... It's like no matter what I do to these characters they're obsessed with each other. They're supposed to be enemies. I want to kill them.
Whoa, I am talkative today.
2011-06-21 03:37YunoNo need to apologise, usually I have more to do in a day, but for some reason today was bland. I'm curious, was it good news?
Related videos, that is a good idea. Where do you see that? Six episodes seems to be a fair judge. I can stop at the first though if it fails to hook me. Though I rarely do that. Was there a series that just completely failed after one episode for you?
Those who are against me are crushed beneath me or so my home support worker says. I tend to believe there is no real concrete truth, but rather a 'personal truth.'Thats a rule we have in DBT no one can claim the truth. People can only claim their truth how they see it. I don't eat very healthy anymore. I am usually going for the more cost effecient meals.
P.S. Back in time those people were looked down upon. They were seen as lowlifes. Where here it's often glorified and have become apart of youth culture. I remember the looks of disgust from the earliar eras when people acted the way they did now. I'm untouchable as far as their actions are concerned. You're right you are disliked and looked down upon. I am called boring and stale. Yet I see their behaviour as an insult to intellectual existance. I'm happy to share it with you. It's due to that dispute we almost didn't have the Hobbit.
P.P.S. Human's adaptability at work? I'm impressed, noise really bothers me. Specifically that noise. I like that agreement, I hope it stays that way, imagine them invading houses. You're the only other person save for my home support worker that doesn't blame me for my actions. I thank you for that. Thank you, I feel stronger without it. Sometimes I waver, I wonder about how things can be different. Though it got less and less as the months past. Now I can see couples and think nothing. So I am doing well. Thank you, it is either this or having a crazed thrist for affection.
Thank you, though the time limit is in place. There are a few we must hear how horrible their week is for over thirty mintues (limit is 2mins). If you stop them they rage. I've butted heads with a few already. I know it's hard as I have the disorderalso, but I think why should I lay myself bare in a DBT class? They just want to know how you did number wise. Then mention something you did well and something you struggled with. Science interest me greatly, yet I share your sentiment in that it is not everything. People who are on the side of science says it is everything. I disagree. I am called delusional in this disagreement(Lots of athiests where I am). Yet you're very right there are many things that can't be explained. I agree, though I have been having trouble with my writing lately. I can't seem to stick with anything, delete my work. I am not certain what to do to remedy it.
2011-06-20 15:51YunoThat sounds great, I stumble upon most my favourites that way. I am currently downloading a series to watch, but once that is finished I will seek out the one you mentioned. Yes, and action shows is my escape from all that. So when they throw together something like that apparently my nose scrunches up and I look annoyed. It seems phoned in.
Thanks for seeing it my way. They refuse to see it my way, but in reality many of the girls have friends and family who need to get a hold of them. I don't have that and for the most part it's very hard to get to me. They're not safe. I wasn't even thinking about healthy. It's cake for dinner! Breakfast at lunch, and dinner in the morning~ Oh delicious bedlam!
P.S. Remember how I said that it seems like society itself has programmed us not to feel fully? I feel that my BPD wouldn't nearly be as bad if the society wasn't so afraid of intense emotions. Note that this is a "New" disorder. It was identified in the late 80s. I'm certain people suffered it before, but what? But why? When I see people that do what you've mentioned, I confess I am horrified of them. I struggle being around them, and in the end cut them out. Peter Jackson was super mad, I remember in the interview he couldn't calm down. So it was definitely something interesting~ This goes into it a bit: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XoUN2...eature=related
P.P.S. Oh okay, so it's always a percession. That is unpleasant. It is why I am put here so I can avoid it. It can be triggering for me especially the screaming. The bar star clothing? It really is something. I breathe, think, and feel just fine. It is the other stuff I want no part of. It is the root of all evil in my life. So to me it's a weakness. Even after it all, I desperately clung to the idea of finding "my knight" Yet that is not possible. There is no such thing, only people with agendas, shallowness, and limitation. So I chose this to strengthen myself. To be self-efficient.
Ahaha, I confess I want to use it in DBT. At the beginning of the classes we have to share our week, then we have to describe what happened. I often find that some people take up more time than others. So that people have more chances to speak I try to speak quickly. So this way I can say "I got a few 1s two 5s and a 7. As for my week U.C.S." Hmm, I wonder if the other aspect is at work here. Since there are two things I learned while studying genetics, there was DNA and then RNA. Perhaps the environment, the time period, and what you were exposed to changed you from them? I'm similar to my mother, though I am darker than she. She fought her demons/darkness where I embrace them. So while we have similarities I am different. I'm nothing like my father. I love what you said about writing! That is exactly it and describes why I write~
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