To each their own I guess.
Well I already sent a pm to you concluding my thoughts.
You seem to be aware of whatever limitations you're currently placing on yourself (as well as such a huge risk) and the consequences involved, so as absolute as you're being at the moment, there isn't much we can say aside from what we've said already.
But nonetheless, thanks for taking time to share your beliefs on dating and relationships with us on here though. ^^