[leon4281isback]

Well someone who goes through this much unfortunately has no choice but to accept what he's done and somehow find a way. Even after all this, I still don't hate Shinji. Yeah about 70-80% (at least I think so due to the comments I see here and there) of fictional chracters and viewers comes down hard on this guy, and I don't find that surprising at all. And I know how I feel towards Gendo, however I know I can't disagree that Shinji went along with it, and I think I already figured out his reasons for doing so. I feel a bit mixed up anyway. At the very least I don't just call just anybody out without figuring out why people do what they did.

When it gets down to it, What happened to Shinji last movie was yesterday to him now in this movie trying to save Rei which unfortunately caused a worldwide disaster which he found out slowly. The fact of how he was treated only made him feel more withdrawn (of course after 14 freaking years and people sees him as a possible angel being stuck in there) and denial of his actions, even if he is aware of all this...man. So much a guy could take, especially when you're in a world where special kinds of monsters exist and you have a power to take them down, and yet that very same power can also do damage to the rest of the world in some way if somehow used in a way it shouldn't be used, and if it did happen, obviously someone was going to find out, and you'll be dealing with a lot of hate, a hard road to redeem yourself, regardless of how it happen, what you think, and etc.

And Gendo, I still don't like the guy and I wished Shinji could have realized the kind of man he is now sooner and not listen to him. All of this could have been Gendo's plan for all I know after watching this. It's just what I think about this guy. Either way, no going back for Shinji now.

Ugh...All I know is that I still go back to before that I said in my own private blog about stuff hitting the fan for Shinji the moment Rebuild of Evangelion starts, the crud he goes through, especially with his Dad. I get that he lost a wife to some freaky experiment (her soul ending inside the Eva) but dang..(Yeah leave your kid behind and work secretly to bring your wife back or something at the expense of others, even your own son.) I believe back then and sometimes even now, this stuff was just waiting to happen partly It's just a slight feeling, and I do get Shinji a bit, but he does have to understand that it may be easy to do what others tell you, but you're the one who can make the decision to not listen to that person in front of you, even if that person is your father. Thing is, if Gendo cared about him, why the heck would he leave his son hanging, NOT EVEN Check up on him every now and then and just now call him over for "something".

Shiji Ikari may be an idiot, but he's one whose very fragile, struggling to understand the world around him. He's not thinking straight with the situation around him now. All he knew from before was saving Rei, his Eva wouldn't move, Rei was going to be gone forever from his sight, he wouldn't allow it to happen, and suddenly he wakes up in this mess, that he started, that he had no idea until now would get this bad from trying to stop the angel and save rei. A difficult thing to get over, and being around hate didn't make it any better.

Shinji is said to be a very complex and intresting character, probably is in a way. Even if most evangelion fans hate the guy, I wouldn't. I would even reach for the guy's hand and keep him from falling into the dark abyss below. You could throw Shinji off the tallest cliff and throw him off with hatred in your heart, mind and soul, I would bust through the crowd with something handy to keep me from falling, jump right down after him and still grab his hand... Why? Because even after all the negative things Shinji has done, somewhere inside him is a person that could be better than what he is now, regardless of anyone says.