“Good morning Set-chan!”
It said much about Tsukuyomi’s mood that she was able to watch the Konoe heir fling her arms around Setsuna’s without more than a twinge of murderous desire. Konoka, bright and chipper, was smiling up at Setsuna without a care in the world, stealing the place next to her former bodyguard that Tsukuyomi had managed to secure for herself once upon a time—
Yet Tsukuyomi couldn’t manage to rearrange the smile on her face to properly express her disdain for Setsuna’s former charge. Instead, even as her Senpai stuttered out an uncertain greeting, Tsukuyomi felt her grin widen.
It might have had something to do with the delightful flush of Setsuna’s pale skin; maybe it was the way Setsuna had to visibly stop herself from pulling away from Konoka out of shock (something she hadn’t done with Tsukuyomi in quite some time).
Or maybe it was the way Setsuna’s eyes darted over to Tsukuyomi uncomfortably the instant before she said anything to Konoka.
Her Senpai had far from forgotten yesterday.
Tsukuyomi was in a very, very good mood.
“What has you so cheery?”
Not that anyone but her would appreciate that.
Reluctantly, Tsukuyomi dragged her attention away from Setsuna and turned to eye the princess she was no longer obligated to annoy.
That hardly restricted her from having fun though.
“Why would you be interested in knowing?”
“Because anything that makes you happy can’t possibly be good for us,” Asuna said darkly. She cast a protective look over at her friends before returning to glare unpleasantly at Tsukuyomi. “What did you do?”
“I didn’t rape her, if that’s what you’re still worried about.”
If Tsukuyomi had thought about it for any length of time, she would have realized that perhaps bringing that up wasn’t the best idea. Not that it wasn’t accurate enough, and of course the mere mention of it would bother the princess, but the thought of doing anything sexual with Setsuna made her feel entirely too excited in too many ways for her to keep from sounding giddy.
And amused, since she was still keeping her secret about how much more than rape she wanted from her Senpai.
Given the princess’ sensitivity to the topic, giddiness and amusement were precisely the wrong emotions to display.
Asuna came to an abrupt halt and caught Tsukuyomi’s arm.
Tsukuyomi forced herself to stay still in a way not unlike Setsuna’s reaction to her Ojou-sama. She was not fond of anyone’s touch but Setsuna’s after all, and so soon after having her sensation of power returned to her, being close to someone she wouldn’t mind killing at all was a horrible temptation. She could feel the strong pulse of the princess’ blood, steady and quick from anger, and she knew that Setsuna’s eyes weren’t watching her right now—
But she was unarmed. And it was no longer in her best interests to antagonize the princess to the point of extreme violence.
It wasn’t.
She would have to see if the next concession she won from Setsuna could be a weapon. Then she could appreciate moments like this properly.
Regretfully, the princess let go almost insultingly fast, though she didn’t stop glaring. Tsukuyomi gazed back serenely for several seconds, keeping an eye on the way Asuna’s hand kept fidgeting. To think that would have been a very good sign only yesterday.
The princess looked over at Setsuna and Konoka for a moment, and her hand and glare relaxed. “If you didn’t do anything, why aren’t you clinging to Setsuna-san the way you do every other morning?”
“I didn’t say I didn’t do anything, I said I didn’t rape her. There’s a significant difference, Princess.”
A muscle in Asuna’s jaw twitched. “What did you do?”
And just like that whatever joy she had lost at not being able to engage the princess properly reappeared with interest. Tsukuyomi laughed out loud and turned away from the easily enraged girl with a broad grin on her face.
“Well,” she said, cheerily ignoring the flash of sense that suggested she keep silent, “since you’re so eager to know… we kissed.”
Not for a contract, not part of getting caught up in a fight; not for any reason beyond Tsukuyomi finding Setsuna impossibly alluring and
wanting to kiss her. So she had. And it had taken their other roommate interrupting for her Senpai to pull away.
Yesterday had been an excellent day.
“No, you didn’t.”
Tsukuyomi looked over her shoulder at the princess. The girl’s face was oddly blank.
“We certainly did.”
Asuna shook her head. “There’s no way Setsuna-san would—”
Before the princess could finish uttering that very untrue statement, Konoka’s voice sounded out loudly. “Asuna! We’re going to be late!”
The princess barely glanced at her friend, more interested in glaring at Tsukuyomi. But, since for the first time in a while Tsukuyomi wasn’t trying to get on the princess’ last nerve, she decided to be good and walk over to Setsuna’s side. After all, she’d been rewarded for good behavior before. Why not again?
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Never before had Setsuna had so much trouble concentrating during class. Between Tsukuyomi’s staring, Asuna’s staring (which she didn’t understand), and her own jumbled thoughts, she didn’t catch a single word of Negi’s lecture.
She felt a pang of longing for her partner. Konoka understood things like this. Konoka always knew exactly how to handle emotional conflicts—and she could do it without losing her composure. It was practically second nature to her.
Setsuna was terribly inadequate in an emotional arena. She was a swordswoman, not an expert in human relationships. Even forming friendships and enjoying them was a relatively new concept. Relationships involving a—deeper connection… She wasn’t comfortable with them, and certainly wasn’t familiar with them. She had Asuna and Negi’s friendship, and Konoka’s—partnership. That was enough, and it was unproductive and distracting to think of wanting more.
Setsuna found herself horribly distracted.
Tsukuyomi wanted more. With her.
No, that wasn’t quite right. Or at least, that wasn’t the problem. Setsuna wasn’t blind. Tsukuyomi had always wanted more. Only now… now it wasn’t something that could be explained by Tsukuyomi’s unique people skills and bloodlust.
Tsukuyomi was in love with her.
That—Setsuna didn’t have any idea how she was supposed to respond to that. It was bad enough that Tsukuyomi had kissed her, but that was—barely—manageable. Awkward and embarrassing on a level Setsuna wasn’t the least bit prepared for, but not anything that couldn’t be handled. Maybe. If she didn’t think about it too hard.
Love was something else entirely. And after yesterday, Setsuna didn’t think she could reasonably say that Tsukuyomi felt something less than that anymore. She’d wondered before, but the way Tsukuyomi looked at her just before—
There… wasn’t really any way to argue with that.
Setsuna watched Tsukuyomi out of the corner of her eye. The girl had stopped pretending to pay attention to Negi within the first minute of class, preferring to focus all of her attention on Setsuna.
…She wouldn’t stop smiling.
Kissing Setsuna had made her that happy.
Setsuna shoved the thought violently to the back of her head. She didn’t know that for sure. Tsukuyomi had plenty of reasons to be happy. Her seal had finally been changed, resolving her warmth issues for the most part; she’d managed to annoy Asuna again, and…
And she’d kissed the girl she loved.
It would be easier to say that wasn’t the main reason she was happy if—if—
If Setsuna didn’t know what that felt like.
The pencil Setsuna was supposed to be using to take notes slipped from her fingers.
Suddenly, it was very hard to breathe. A dizzying amount of blood was flowing to her head.
She wasn’t thinking straight. Everything with Tsukuyomi was just messing with her head, and she wasn’t thinking properly at all, because if she were, there was no way she would ever admit to—she was Konoka’s bodyguard—partner—not—
She was Konoka’s partner and that was it. Yes, maybe their pactio kiss had meant the world but—
“Senpai?”
A hand brushed against Setsuna’s shoulder. She jerked her head to look at Tsukuyomi. The girl’s smile had lost some of its brightness, and her hand twitched uncertainly in the air between them for a second before she disregarded caution and lowered it to Setsuna’s wrist. She shivered a little, cheeks flushed, and Setsuna felt the tingling in her face worsen in response.
“You’re looking stressed. Something on your mind?”
Setsuna shook her now throbbing head. She wanted to stop thinking. She wanted to go back to when she hadn’t cared enough about Tsukuyomi’s feelings to let them completely dismantle her life. And above all, she wanted to erase the past few minutes from her memory because there were some things that she
just shouldn’t think.
“That’s very hard to believe, Senpai.” Tsukuyomi’s fingers began to stroke skin left unprotected by Setsuna’s shirt. “You haven’t been your usual attentive self since—”
“I’m
fine, Tsukuyomi,” Setsuna snapped. She ripped her arm away from Tsukuyomi and picked her pencil back up. Her hands were shaking.
Surprisingly, Tsukuyomi fell silent without complaint.
Setsuna almost wished the other girl would keep pushing. At least then something would feel normal.
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Apparently, one of the unspoken conditions of having her seal changed was that Tsukuyomi was no longer allowed to spend lunch alone. So instead of spending a very boring hour trying to remove the locks hiding away her roommates’ toys, Tsukuyomi had the privilege of spending a very boring hour in complete silence with her second favorite person in the school.
After nearly an hour of watching Mana play with her guns, Tsukuyomi was starting to think her exchange with the princess was going to be her only conversation of the day.
Even through her persistent joy she could recognize that as an incredibly depressing thought.
“You really aren’t going to say anything about it?”
Mana didn’t look up from reassembling an oversized rifle. “I have little interest in your relationship with Setsuna. As long as the two of you aren’t planning on killing each other, it doesn’t concern me. Besides,” she said dryly, “it seems that you’re determined to ignore whatever advice I offer you.”
“But I’m not asking for advice,” Tsukuyomi pointed out. “I just want to know why you don’t seem the least bit curious about why Setsuna and I were kissing.”
“I assumed it was because you’re in love with her and caught her off guard.” Mana smirked. “I have to admit, I never pegged you for such a romantic. One kiss and you can’t resist bragging to everyone willing to speak to you?”
Tsukuyomi grinned. “It was a very nice kiss.”
“I’m sure. But you might have wanted to avoid telling Kagurazaka about it.”
“You have good hearing.”
“Good eyes; she wouldn’t stop glaring at the two of you during class.”
“Really?” Staring at Setsuna and worrying at how quickly her Senpai’s face could go from red to white had occupied most of her time.
She was still very slightly concerned about what had prompted Setsuna’s violent reaction. Whatever it was, it was very unlikely that it had nothing to do with her, and the few things that could shock Setsuna that badly were most likely not things Tsukuyomi wanted her thinking. It was fine if she was just mortified over the kiss, but a dramatic revelation probably wouldn’t lead to anything good.
“She’s more interested in your relationship than Setsuna is.”
Tsukuyomi tried to pout, but her smile refused to go away. “Aw, that’s cruel, Onee-san.”
“I was only hired to watch you. Being nice isn’t part of that arrangement.”
Tsukuyomi propped herself up on Setsuna’s pillow to watch Mana more easily, but she didn’t get up. It was strange, but even after only a night of separation, she’d really missed her spot in her Senpai’s nest. “Setsuna-senpai cares quite a bit.” She wouldn’t have changed the seal if she didn’t. And of course, that she’d kissed back at all instead of pulling back in disgust meant… a lot. “It’s just not the same way.”
Mana’s response to that was limited to a slight smile. She reached back into the box she’d taken out from under the bed and pulled out a small stack of paper. Tsukuyomi sat up straighter to get a better look. Charms.
She’d grabbed some yesterday too. If she was out already…
Well then. So there was some fun to be had in Mahora that didn’t have anything to do with her Senpai.
“If the demon infestation is too much for you, I could always help,” Tsukuyomi said casually. “You’d have to give me a weapon, but—?”
Mana laughed and pocketed the charms before grinning wryly at Tsukuyomi. “Setsuna might have decided to loosen your leash a bit, but there isn’t a single person in this entire school willing to trust you with a weapon.”
“You certainly know a lot about it for someone who’s not interested.”
“The headmaster is concerned,” Mana said lightly, “and as I’m currently in his employ, he chose to share those concerns with me. And in general it’s a good idea to keep an eye on people who were trying to kill your comrades not so long ago—and won’t hesitate to do it again.”
“I won’t kill Setsuna-senpai.”
The words (sounding uncomfortably defensive and sharp) came out before Tsukuyomi could think to stop them, leaving her roommate looking almost surprised. Tsukuyomi whipped her head around and fixed her gaze on the window. For her part, she was feeling a little…
Embarrassed?
Wasn’t that a shame.
It was the type of emotion someone like her should probably feel when confessing that there was someone she wouldn’t kill, and it was certainly preferable to the sheer revulsion the thought of a dead Setsuna tended to inspire, but really, a quibbling little emotion like that wasn’t to her tastes at all.
An awkward silence fell.
After a few disturbingly quiet moments, Mana broke it. “That still leaves a considerable number of my classmates you wouldn’t mind killing. No weapons.”
Tsukuyomi sighed loudly. “You really aren’t any fun.”
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By the time night fell in Evangeline’s resort, Setsuna was almost beginning to regret her decision to take a more active role in Negi’s training instead of devoting her attention to avoiding Konoka. Her body ached abominably, and she was having more trouble than she’d previously thought possible making her way from the bath to a bed.
But for a few blissful hours, her mind had been clear and focused as it hadn’t been in far too long.
It was too bad that feeling couldn’t last.
Battered and exhausted, all of the thoughts she’d distracted herself from were rushing back. She leaned heavily against a wall and stared at the floor.
What was she going to do?
“Looks like you pushed yourself a little too hard.”
Rescued once again from her thoughts, Setsuna sprung to her feet properly—her body straining with the effort—only to blink in confusion when she found Asuna standing in front of her. She relaxed back into the wall and smiled halfheartedly at her friend. “Maybe. It’s been a while since I’ve exhausted myself like this.”
“Probably since your fight with Four-Eyes, right?”
Setsuna tensed. “I—yes, that sounds about right.”
Asuna crossed her arms and avoided eye contact. She opened and closed her mouth several times. Setsuna waited nervously for her to say something. Suddenly having company instead of being alone with her thoughts wasn’t so pleasant. She breathed in shakily. “Asuna-san?”
“She said something weird earlier.”
“O-oh.”
Oh no.
Tsukuyomi wouldn’t have
told Asuna—
Only… yes, yes she definitely would, and she’d certainly had the time, and that would explain why Asuna was paying so much attention to them during class—
She was going to kill Tsukuyomi. Of all the people she could have told, she just had to tell
Asuna.
Letting the odds of Asuna telling Konoka rush through her mind, Setsuna was painfully aware of her face going bright red. This was significantly worse than suffering through her own private thoughts about—what happened. At least then she wouldn’t have to feel the disapproval coming off her friend in waves.
“Setsuna-san… you
didn’t.”
“I didn’t do anything,” Setsuna protested weakly.
“
You kissed her?” Asuna hissed.
“No!” Setsuna disregarded the stray thought that she really had no idea how she’d reacted to the kiss because it had driven all conscious thought from her mind. She had had enough of thinking things she shouldn’t. She started babbling, far too tired and flustered to keep the words from coming out. “She kissed me, and I didn’t really know what to do since no one’s ever kissed me outside of a pactio, and then Tatsumiya came in and—and I have no idea what to do because I don’t know how to deal with anything like this—”
“What’s there to deal with?” Asuna interrupted irritably. “Tell her to back off or you’ll stop letting her outside. Better yet, get Kaede to room with her.”
Setsuna clicked her mouth shut and turned her attention back to the floor. It took a humiliating amount of effort to resist telling Asuna that Tsukuyomi was staying with her regardless of anything else. Tsukuyomi wouldn’t react well to someone else guarding her, and…
She didn’t want to be separated from Tsukuyomi.
What was
wrong with her lately?
“Kaede’s already rooming with the Narutaki twins.”
Asuna huffed angrily. “So you’re just going to let her assault you without doing anything about it?”
“She didn’t—” Setsuna started to object, but she cut herself short. As far as Asuna was concerned, Tsukuyomi
had assaulted her. She only knew Tsukuyomi as an enemy. She didn’t know how Tsukuyomi felt, and even if it was explained to her, she probably wouldn’t believe it. Or think it mattered.
She didn’t
care about Tsukuyomi.
Weariness that went beyond Setsuna’s aching body flooded her being. She swallowed around the lump in her throat and focused on addressing Asuna instead of the strange squirmy feeling in her stomach.
“It wasn’t really—an assault. She just… caught me off guard.”
Asuna groaned. “You and Negi—”
“Asuna? Set-chan? What are you two doing out here?”
The significant amount of blood that had migrated to Setsuna’s head throughout the conversation drained with alarming speed. Very slowly, she looked up, praying that her eyes would prove her ears wrong.
They didn’t.
Konoka was standing a meter away, a look of benign curiosity on her face.
Setsuna pushed herself off the wall with what little strength remained in her body and tried to look like she had no reason to feel panicked at the mere sight of her partner. Something—possibly the flash of concern in Konoka’s eyes—told her she didn’t do a very good job. Asuna’s suddenly rigid posture wasn’t comforting either; if Konoka hadn’t known something was going on before…
On the bright side, Setsuna thought frantically, maybe Asuna’s reaction meant she had no interest in telling Konoka about the kiss after all. She couldn’t think of a single reason why Asuna would be willing to keep it from their best friend, but she could only welcome the possibility. She stared numbly at her partner, who returned the gaze with growing confusion.
After several seconds of uncomfortable silence, Asuna rubbed the back of her neck awkwardly. “Uh—I just came out to check on Setsuna-san.”
Forcing herself to do something other than staring blankly at Konoka, Setsuna nodded shallowly. “I-I overdid it a little.”
The concern she’d seen in Konoka’s eyes flared, and the girl took out her pactio card in what had to be record time. “Are you okay? I can heal you again if I missed something earlier.”
Setsuna shook her head vigorously, feeling a touch of heat coming back to her cheeks. “I’m fine, Ojou-sama. Just a little tired.”
Konoka looked at her dubiously and glanced at Asuna, who was trying hard to look innocent. “If you’re sure,” she said slowly. “But then why were you two arguing? Asuna only gets that annoyed when she’s worried about something.”
Guilt burned in Setsuna’s stomach at the genuine, compassionate worry in Konoka’s voice, and she found herself looking back at the increasingly familiar floor while Asuna tried to explain their encounter without using the phrase, “the psychopath kissed Setsuna-san.”
She was going to kill Tsukuyomi for this.
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Tsukuyomi eyed her Senpai curiously.
Setsuna had come back from her lunch break looking uncharacteristically tired. She’d thanked Mana for her service in a strangely clipped fashion, promising to pay her as soon as possible, and then practically stomped out of their room, leaving Tsukuyomi to trail behind her.
Less strangely, she’d barely said a word to Tsukuyomi.
The very interesting sparks of irritation (and the more standard embarrassment) in Setsuna’s eyes when she looked at her spoke volumes though. Of what, Tsukuyomi hadn’t the slightest idea, but it was definitely interesting.
After several minutes of quietly marching to their next class, Tsukuyomi’s curiosity got the better of her.
“Did something happen?”
Setsuna came to an immediate stop. Tsukuyomi continued walking until she was a short distance ahead and could easily see the emotions playing out in her Senpai’s eyes. The embarrassment that was keeping her silent seemed to be at war with her frustration.
Oh yes, something had definitely happened, and it meant another interruption of Setsuna’s attempted silent treatment.
“Did you
have to tell Asuna-san?”
Tsukuyomi smiled brightly as her mind put two and two together. Not only was Setsuna talking again, she was even willing to come close to discussing the joyful events of yesterday. If Tsukuyomi wasn’t careful, she might end up thanking the princess.
She was having a
wonderful day.
“Of course, Senpai! It wouldn’t have been right to lie to her after she asked so directly.” Tsukuyomi peered a little more closely at Setsuna. Her Senpai had closed her eyes and her grip on Yūnagi might have been worrisome under other circumstances. “But I suppose if you wanted it to be just between us…”
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Setsuna had every intention of snapping at Tsukuyomi for that remark—the teasing lilt in her voice implied something that Setsuna was in no way comfortable with—but when she opened her eyes, her voice died in her throat.
There was something—strange about Tsukuyomi. Something about her smile seemed different. It wasn’t the look Setsuna had come to have a very rational fear of, but at the same time… there was just something different about her.
There was a warmth in her eyes that Setsuna knew she’d never seen before. It made her mouth feel dry. For a surreal moment, she felt as dizzyingly numb as she had when Tsukuyomi kissed her.
“Setsuna-senpai?”
Rudely awakened from the haze she’d somehow fallen into, air—had she forgotten to breathe?—swooped back into her lungs and Setsuna found herself looking at the same Tsukuyomi she saw every day.
She tried to make her mouth work, but it just
wouldn’t.
“Are you alright?”
Setsuna walked stiffly past Tsukuyomi, mumbling something about getting to class. Her heart was beating abnormally fast, and she still felt a bit dizzy, but as long as she avoided looking at her roommate nothing felt too bizarre.
She took a shaky breath as they headed down the stairs.
What was that
?