It is in the minds of men that madness is created. From the things that they see, and cannot understand, they are afraid. If they can comprehend it, and understand it, that fear goes away. But if they cannot, for the cosmos does not always use the logic of man, their minds will not be able to make sense of the horrors that lurk outside of this world. That fear will fester and grow. It will build into a fear of the unknown, of what is and what is not.
And it is from this fear that madness comes. The madness of not understanding that which you see before you. The madness of knowing that the cosmos hides things you were never meant to see...
*****
I came home from work that night, tired and beat. Another murder had happened in my district, and no leads had appeared that I could follow up on. During the years I had been an Enforcer, I had never came upon such a weird case. It was the work of a serial killer, on that point I was certain. But he was good. Supernatural kind of good. He left no evidence whatsoever, apart from the victims’ faces. Their eyes had been slit in two, but luckily for them, after he had murdered them. To me it seemed to be his trademark and the only thing i could secure as evidence against him.
My apartment was dark as I arrived. It always was at that time. I entered the hallway, throwing my coat on the hanger and laid the keys on the drawer. Almost stumbling into the kitchen, exhausted from the long day and hungry like an animal, I opened the fridge and took what I could find. Noodles and left-over fried salmon, to be precise. That was my dinner that night. I didn’t care.
Having boiled the noodles and heated the fish, I stuffed it all into a bowl and took it with me to the living room, collapsing in the sofa. The television turned on automatically at my presence and I threw my legs up on the table. I stayed that way. It was a side of myself I rarely showed to others; the soft and quiet Fate, a slob when it came down to it.
At least after such a rough day, I thought,
I have no regrets.
I sat there, or lay, slurping my noodles and nibbling on the fish. It tasted horrible, but I had expected that. It was dry and raw, making my throat dry up. I barely watched the TV. There was some show on about mushrooms, but I had no idea what they said because my mind was drifting between thinking how wonderful sleep was and how I could solve the murders. It refused to leave my head, a bane as an Enforcer. Our brains were hardwired to think about crime, all the time. Or maybe it was just me. I was too tired to think straight, anyway.
I put the bowl down on the table and just watched the TV. Its light appeared to give the room a light blue tint. It was a soothing color, because my eyelids were becoming heavy, sleep starting to conquer my body. But I didn’t feel like sleeping. I had to think about the murders some more. There was something there, right in front of my eyes. A clue as to how to solve them. I just couldn’t put my finger on it... Maybe if... I...
I woke with a light jolt, a muscle reflex, as if I had fallen in a dream. I couldn’t remember if I had, though. I hadn’t closed my eyes for more than twenty minutes as the show about mushrooms was approaching its end. They were babbling about different kind of color tones on the mushrooms. I barely listened as I stretched my limbs. I then stood up and walked to the kitchen, taking the bowl with me. I put it in the sink, the porcelain clanking against the metal. But another, strange, noise followed it. I froze, goosebumps on my skin, and waited.
There was something weird around me. I couldn’t hear or see it, but I could sense it. What it was I didn’t know. But something was wrong. Something was... observing me. I looked over my shoulder and listened, letting the full silence of the apartment fill my ears. I heard nothing once again and turned on the water to clean the bowl.
My imagination is running rampant, I thought to myself.
It has to be. I have been awake for too long. I’m fatigued.
The water pipes gurgled and only air escaped the muzzle. I sighed and hit it lightly. Nothing happened and I hit it a bit harder. It gurgled again, but this time water came out with force. It had been a block in the pipes, I figured. The water...
The water was red. I froze again as the liquid ran over my outstretched hands and into the bowl. It didn’t feel like water, either. It was heavier, stickier and-
I recoiled and lost my balance, dropping the bowl with a crash as I fell to the floor. It was blood, flowing from the pipes. I looked at my red hands. I noticed they were shaking. I reached for a towel and tried to clean them. It only made it worse, leaving stains all over the towel and on the floor. I wiped harder, desperate to make it go away. My skin started to itch, irritated at the rough rubbing.
As I tried to clean myself, still in a state of shock, I didn’t notice that the sink had been clogged. It slowly filled with blood, and by the time I stood up, it was flowing outside of it. It ran down the cabinet and down to the floor where it formed a small puddle around my feet. I took a few deep breaths and calmed down. After I had collected myself enough to think straight I twisted the knob on the tap, strangling the stream of blood. I then leaned back against the wall, letting out a long sigh.
I had no idea what was going on. I was disgusted to the brink of throwing up, and tired enough to fall asleep where I was. My head was in pieces, trying to understand what was going on. It was as if I was in a fog. Gray and blurry. I wobbled out of the kitchen, into the bedroom. I didn’t take off my clothes and simply rolled onto the bed. The mattress felt reassuring, soft. My brain started to shut down. It left everything to later, telling em to sleep. I didn’t want it to, not now. But I had no control.
I curled up on the bed and felt my eyelids close, heavy as they were, but my mind was still in disarray. I was fatigued. I was hallucinating. It couldn’t be real, but it felt too much like it was. It didn’t have the usual signs of an hallucination and I still felt awake.
The bed suddenly moved as something laid down beside me. The hair on my neck stood up. Chills ran down my back as I felt an ice-cold hand on my shoulder. It squeezed so hard that I almost felt its fingers penetrating my skin and I could feel its cold breath in my ear. I shut my eyes so tight it hurt. Then it spoke.
“Fate. HE is coming.”
I turned my head against my will, pulled by an unbeatable desire to see the owner of the obscene voice. What I saw was an unspeakable abomination. But, somewhere inside my head, a connection was made to my deepest memories. And I knew who it was.
My mother.
*****
I woke up, panting. It was morning, the sun breaking in through my windows. I took a deep breath and calmed down. Rubbing my temples I told myself it had just been a dream. Just a dream. But a realistic one, I admitted. It had felt so real. I was still shaking, my nerves unbound beneath my skin.
I slowly sat up in the sofa where I had fallen asleep. The TV was still on, showing the morning news. I shook my head, clearing it. I felt sluggish, sick. Maybe I even had a fever.
I got up and walked into the kitchen. I didn’t mean to, but the recent memory of the sink filled with blood made me flinch. It was empty, of course. I started to prepare breakfast, all the while darting my eyes this way and that, checking things that weren’t actually there.
t had been a dream. But why had it felt so real? And why had Precia been in it...
The thoughts flowed as I poured up my tea and added the honey. I was lost in thought for a few minutes and didn’t hear the TV. Slowly I started to return again, its noise bringing me back into reality.
“And now, for a special report about he riots in Central Cranagan that started earlier this morning. So far the police have given no statement, as they are still investigating the underlying causes of the riots. Our reporter, however, is there, ready to give us updates. Sofya, can you hear me?”
I took my tea and toast and went back into the living room, sitting down in the sofa. The TV switched from the studio to a place with a lot of screaming and fighting in the background. I recognized the buildings in the background. It was the Cranagan Square, not far from where I lived. The reporter seemed nervous while she tried to speak.
“...-rioters are getting more vicious. I’ve already seen a couple of beatings and a car was set on fire just a few minutes ago. The situation is getting worse by the minute, Ann.”The noise of sirens in the background made the reporter turn her head.
“Ah! The police has arrived. They’re starting to circle the rioters. It’s starting to calm down a little, I have to say. I think-”
I tuned the TV out and sipped my tea. A riot in Cranagan was nothing unheard of, but it was still rare. Searching through my memory, I found nothing in recent events that could have set it off. If anything had happened I would have been notified as well, which I found very odd.
“Bardiche,” I said, holding the cup of tea with both of my hands, “check the net for anything related to this riot.”
“Yes, Sir.”
I waited while he trawled the net, taking a bite of my toast. The delicious butter melted in my mouth.
“Sir, no data found relating to the riots,” Bardiche said after a while.
I shook my head slowly in disbelief and eyed him where he lay on the table. “Doesn’t make any sense. Why would they be rioting? There’s no reason.”
“Perhaps they’re a group unknown to us, Sir. They could have gone undetected until now,” Bardiche suggested.
I shook my head again, looking intently at the TV. “They aren’t carrying banners or similar clothing. The things they are screaming are incoherent at best. Did they escape from a mental hospital?”
“I very much doubt that, Sir.”
I sensed a tad of amusement in his voice, but ignored it. He was still right, though. It had been a silly proposition. There were too many of them, and they looked like normal people from a first glance. No, this was similar to mass hysteria.
But from what?
A panel suddenly appeared by my side and I accepted the call. An operator stared back at me. “Good morning, Ma’am. I’m sorry to disturb you during breakfast, but you have been requested at the Cranagan Square.”
I cocked an eyebrow. “That’s where the riots are going on. They seem to be under control as far as I can see,” I said and nodded at the TV, where police were moving in to subdue the rioters.
The operator seemed flustered. “That isn’t the case behind the scenes, Ma’am. It’s a serious situation-”
I nodded and hurried to put my tea down, feeling a pang of guilt for my behaviour. “Sorry. I’ve had a rough morning. Of course, I’ll be down as soon as I can.” I cancelled the call, grabbing my coat and headed for the car. My hair had seen better days and I hadn’t even managed to get a shower. But the job was calling for me again. As it had many times this past week.
*****
The scene where the riots were taking place had calmed down when I arrived. People were rounded up in small camps patrolled by police while medics checked on the wounded. What the cameras hadn’t revealed was the fact that the rioters weren’t determined with a common goal. Instead, they were all shouting random words and sentences, bewildered by their own imagination. I hesitated on using the word ‘mad’, but that was the closest thing I could think of.
Walking through the checkpoint at the front of the square, I approached one of the senior doctors working on a patient with a bloody ear. As I got closer I could hear that the patient was mumbling something incoherent, much like the people around him.
“Before you ask,” the doctor said as he acknowledged me with a nod, “I will tell you that I have no idea what is going on with these people.” He gestured around him hopelessly. “Screaming, murmuring, whispering. Coupled with violence and crying. Sheer mass hysteria.”
”Any idea of what could have caused it?” I asked. “Chemicals? Bio-terrorism?”
“Unlikely. A bomb would have been noticed. They’d have to infect the water supply. Or it would have been airborne.” He shook his head, scratching his chin. “More people would have been affected if that was the case...”
“Understood, Doctor,” I said. “Then what about the rioters? What are they mumbling about?”
The doctor gestured at his current patient. “Hear for yourself.”
I approached the patient sitting on the improvised bed and watched as his lips moved without any sound being made. I leaned in closer. His voice was barely a whisper. Straining my ears to their fullest let me hear his words.
“The lurker... is...what I’ve seen is... the lurker is to...Him...”
I stood up straight, an eyebrow raised. “Random ramble?”
The doctor shrugged. “Your guess is as good as mine. Most of the ones here are mumbling the same thing. Others are screaming it. Some are crying about a ‘gate’. I just don’t know.”
I nodded and observed the patient. His eyes were blank and shiny. His lips were dry. His body looked otherwise normal from what I could determine. “Any weird... mutations? Disabilities?”
“No, not from what I’ve been able to gather.” He looked at his watch and shook his head. “I’m sorry, Ma’am. The clock is ticking and I have many patients to attend to.”
“I understand,” I said and watched him leave. Just as he disappeared into the mass of people shambling back and forth, another call came in for me, audio only.
“Yes?”
“Ma’am, I need you over at Main Street. There’s been a horrible suicide... The circumstances are weird. I think it’s related to the riots.”
“I’m on my way,” I said and added, “Teana, you don’t have to be so formal with me, you know.”
“Right, Fate.”
*****
I felt like I was pulled in several different directions at once. First I had been at the square and now I had arrived at Main Street. As I left the car and entered the apartment complex where the body had been found, I wondered how they had connected the supposed suicide to the riots. A note, perhaps. Writings, recordings, something mentioning the same things that I had heard from the patient at the square. Other than that, I didn’t see how they could connect it.
Teana stood outside the apartment when I reached the third floor. She nodded at me and went inside. I followed her, entering the apartment that was in disarray. Furniture had been overturned and paper sheets lay all over the floor. I bent down and picked one of them up. I had never seen such a disjointed and chaotic language before. I couldn’t understand a single word, but it was pulling me in regardless. I tried to make sense of the words written on the paper. The harder I looked at the words, something scratched in the back of my mind. It was hidden away, a locked memory or a strand of thought. It made me uneasy.
“Fate?”
I gasped and looked up. Teana was standing next to me, looking at me with confused eyes.
“Sorry, I got distracted,” I said as I stood up. “Where’s the body?”
“In here.” Teana gestured at the bedroom. “But prepare yourself. It’s not pretty.”
So that’s why you’re so mellow, I thought and walked past her. The door was barely open so I pushed it lightly. It opened without a sound and once my mind realized what I was looking at, I turned my eyes away and took a couple of deep breaths to calm the bile rising in my throat.
The bedroom was as chaotic as the first room had been. But where the latter had been covered with sheets of paper, the bedroom was covered in blood. It formed words, the very same words that had been written on the papers. It covered the floor and the walls. But that wasn’t what had made me turn away. That had been the dead body, lying on the bare bed at the opposite side of the room. It was the most gruesome sight I had witnessed in my career. It was all made even worse by the fact that it had been a suicide. The man, who could barely be called a man anymore, had done it all to himself while he was still conscious.
The crime scene analyst approached me, having been crouching down next to the victim, and handed me a datapad. “He died slowly,” she began while eyeing the body. “An extreme loss of blood is the primary cause of death. He used the knife you can see on the floor, carved that text into his stomach. I’m not sure how he managed to cut his face that way.”
I looked at the body again, prepared this time. His eyes were gone, gouged out by what I could only guess had once been his fingers. They were now small stumps on his hands. His mouth had been slit open as well, cut from side to side, with his cheeks punctured. “And the words? Same as the ones on the notes and the walls?”
“Actually,” the analyst said and pointed at a specific entry at the datapad I still held in my hand, “They’re different.”
I looked down at the screen and brought up the entry. The words were in our language, but they still didn’t make sense. “‘The Lurker is impending. I have seen him. I know the Lurker. The Gate, the Key.’?”, I said and rose an eyebrow.
The analyst shrugged. “We haven’t found anything similar anywhere else. Nor anything, or anyone, that can make sense of it. But it’s similar to what some of the rioters have been saying, isn’t it?”
So that’s what the connection is, I thought and looked at Teana who had been standing next to us the whole time. She was still looking mellow and also a bit pale. She wasn’t used to these cases yet.
“Good work, Teana,” I said to lighten her up a bit. “We’re done here. I can give you a ride back to HQ if you want.”
Teana smiled meekly and accepted the suggestion. I said goodbye to the analyst, who went back to her gruesome task, which she called work, of further analyzing the sack of meat that lay on the bed. I then left the apartment complex together with Teana, all the while pondering deeply about the meaning of the words I had read.
*****
“What do you think about all this?” I asked Teana as we drove up on highway. She sat beside me, idly looking out of the window.
“I don’t know what to think, Fate. This feels... surreal. Unreal, even. I’ve never seen anything like it. It’s not much better together with my dreaming either...”
My ears perked up at that last part and I looked at her sharply. “Dreams? Teana, what kind of dreams have you had?”
Teana regarded me with surprise at my sudden change of tone. “Nightmarish-ones. It started a couple of days ago...”
“Please, Teana, tell me about them. It might be important.”
“Important how?”
“I had a nightmare as well. But just one. It might just be a coincidence... But with the riots, the people... It might be connected.”
Teana sighed and clenched her fists in her lap. She started to speak, reluctantly; “I had fallen asleep at my desk, at home. I was late on some reports so I had decided to finish them. I didn’t know it was a dream back then, when I ‘woke’ up, I mean. It felt too real. Anyway, I decided to eat something as I was quite hungry. I stood up from my desk and walked over to the closed door, leading to the kitchen. I think I was distracted because I stepped through without thinking and when I looked up all I saw was... darkness. I looked behind me and the door had gone. I was in ‘nothing’, I assumed, until I looked down and saw the floor. It was then that I realized that I was walking upon a sea of blood. It made the noise of water puddles when I stepped on it. I was going mad at that point. I had no idea what was going on. I was confused, horrified. And then I felt something snatch my ankles, rooting me to the spot. When I looked down, I...”
I looked at her, intrigued. “And?”
“I saw my brother. His face and the hands holding me. It... An abomination. It wasn’t him, yet it was at the same time. My mind told me it was him. But I couldn’t... I woke up shortly afterwards.”
She took a deep breath and avoided my eyes. She instead looked down on her hands, hiding most of her face from me. “That is all,” she finished in a small voice.
I nodded, more to myself than her, and turned off the highway as we were getting closer to HQ. “I saw Precia,” I said. “An abomination. But I knew it was her. Just as you knew it was your brother.”
She finally looked at me, her eyes glossy. “I see...”
The rest of the drive was filled with silence, but it didn’t take long until we pulled in on the parking lot next to the HQ building. As we got out of the car, I noticed for the first time that day a weird cloud in the distance. It wasn’t dark, but rather gray, blending in with the rest of the clouds. But what catched my attention was the shape. It was strange for a cloud to look like that. I couldn’t even explain it. It was too weird. Teana didn’t seem to notice it as she entered the building straight away. Putting my thoughts aside, I shortly did the same.
Right as I stepped through the revolving door I was promptly met by an officer I recognized. Her name was Anna, part of the small crime division. Before she even began to speak she handed me a datapad.
“This is?” I asked.
“Reports that just started to come in. Crimes, such as stealing, assault and public disturbance are going through the roof.” She shook her head with her arms crossed. “I don’t like this, Harlaown. I really don’t.”
I agreed with a nod and opened the datapad. An abnormal long list of crimes scrolled across the screen, none of which stood out in particular. “Why are you showing me this?”
“Just wanted you to know. I think it’s related to the riots, but I can’t prove anything. Just be careful, Harlaown.”
“Anna?”
She looked at the busy people around us with a suspicious glare, then stared right at me. “Things aren’t as they seem. Something is coming. I don’t know what. But it’s going to be bad.”
Without another word she strode off and left the building. I stood there with the datapad in my hand, taking her words in. Surely it was just my mind playing tricks... But hadn’t I seen some of the madness of the rioters in her eyes? It had been weak, yet influential enough to make itself visible.
I resisted running after her. I didn’t see the point. I was most likely wrong. Besides, I had too much to do. Stuffing the datapad in my coat’s pocket, I took the elevator up to my office. I had reports to do and documents to sign. If anything, I wouldn’t go outside until later that evening.
*****
Hours passed. Words appeared on my screen as I wrote the reports. My back ached and I was hungry. And even if four hours had passed since my strange meeting with Anna, it still hadn’t left my mind. I couldn’t stop worrying about it. What she had said felt too real, too genuine to have been a hoax. Then there were the dreams that both I and Teana had. And the rioters...
I leaned back in my chair and stretched my arms. My joints popped and I felt some of the tension go away, but the fatigue that threatened me stayed where it was.
I need coffee, I decided and stood up. The coffee machine wasn’t far from my office so I left and walked into the corridor. The machine was to my left, in the corner by a window. The thin corridor was lined with offices on either side and to my right, at the end of it, was another window with a person standing next to it. Even from a distance I recognized him as David, one of the technicians in the building. His bulky form was easy to spot, especially with his silhouette against the white sky behind him.
The trip to the coffee machine was delayed as I noticed something odd about him. He had his back to me, standing in silence. He was rocking back and forth, only a little, but just enough for it to be noticeable. I took a step toward him and called out; “David? Are you alright?”
He flinched at the sound of my voice. He turned around and looked at me, eyes empty, lips curved in a frown. He said nothing, which wasn’t like him. He was always smiling, happy to chat. This wasn’t the David I knew. The strange person standing there was someone else entirely.
“David?”
He turned back again to stare at the window. That’s when I noticed that the window was open. A chilling breeze stroke past me and I tensed up, unbelieving.
“Don’t-”
Had I reacted quicker, I might have caught him. With my speed I could have reached him before he took a step into thin air and disappeared from view. But I had hesitated. For some reason I had frozen in place, my thoughts flaring wildly with all that had happened that day. I heard the impact and the screams of horror from below.
I approached the window, hesitated, and then finally looked down. Far below on the street a crowd had already gathered around David’s body, while a couple of officers tried to seal the location off. Even from the height I was watching from, I saw the damage. The impact had crushed his head, splattering his brain all over the pavement. His limbs were twisted, white bone sticking out in varying angles, and below him a dark pool of blood was slowly forming.
At that moment my mind decided to show me the images of the man in the bed. I almost vomited out of the window, but managed to hold it down and sat down on the floor. I took deep breaths, trying to calm myself, and my stomach, and make sense of what had just happen. David’s eyes had been the same as the rioters, but he hadn’t said anything. David hadn’t been David. He had changed.
“What the hell is going on?” I said it out loud. Hearing my own voice against the booming images on the inside of my eyelids made me feel a bit better, but it was as if I was surrounded by fog. My vision was blurry for a few seconds before it went back to normal.
I eventually stood up, my legs shaking from the frailty of my mind. The day was getting worse. Around me the building had gone into a state of confusion and chaos. As I stumbled back to my office, others rushed past me. Rumors started to drift around and I heard someone mention another suicide in the nearby area. I was shaking my head all the way back to my office. I had the same feeling as in the dream. Reality seemed to bend around me, but this time I knew that I was awake.
Or was I? Was I still asleep, caught in another world that my mind had created? Everything around me, filled with faked reality. At that moment, it made sense to me. It had all happened so sudden, out of the blue, that it had to be another dream. But I didn’t know how to make sure, how to wake myself up-
Maybe that was what David had done, I thought, the answer suddenly jumping into my mind.
If this was a dream connected to others, David’s suicide had made him wake up. He probably was in the real world right now, going to work as usual, complaining about nightmares. Yes. It makes sense.
I looked at the window and felt a strange longing to wake up. But I still wasn’t sure. If I was wrong, I’d die, fooled by my own ideas and imagination.
Maybe that’s actually what happened. David was caught in the dream, just as I was. And he wanted to wake up. Only he wasn’t in a dream at all. I-
A hand on my shoulder made me jump and I blinked in sudden confusion, my senses returning. I turned around and stared wildly.
“Fate?” Teana said, worry hidden in her voice. “Are you OK?”
I nodded warily and gave her a gentle smile. “I think so. I’m just exhausted.”
“You should head home. You’ve done enough for today.”
“But-”
“Fate. You’re tired, fatigued, what with everything that happened today. Myself included. But we need you to be rested. You aren’t thinking straight, right now.”
I kept my mouth shut because I knew she was right. The thought that had occurred to me just a moment ago was silly. And dangerous. I thanked her on the inside, somewhat amused that she didn’t know what possible disaster she had prevented.
“Thanks, Teana. I’ll take your advice and head home for now,” I said and waved a weak goodbye, intentionally avoiding to speak any further. She was smiling as I spun around and called for the elevator. It was already there, so it just pinged and opened its doors for me. I walked inside and pressed the button for the bottom floor as I turned my head back to look at Teana again. The door began to close. And I saw her face. Grinning in madness.
The horrifying sight was gone when the elevator doors closed and I began my descent, heading homeward.
*****
Entering my apartment as I had the day before, I felt as if the world came crumbling down. The worries I had suffered at HQ was back, together with the last image in my mind of Teana grinning at me. I had never seen such a grin before, filled with malice and insanity.
Despite not having eaten for hours, I didn’t feel hungry. I didn’t go into the living room either. The memory of last night still hung fresh before my eyes. That’s why I decided to head straight to bed, to conquer sleep before the dreams would surprise me. I would be ready for them this time.
I collapsed on the bed, too tired to take my clothes off. My hair was tangled and sticky. I could feel the roughness of my skin against the sheets. But it was warm and comfortable. I relaxed, letting my heavy eyelids close. I felt sleep rushing towards me, like a pleasant summer breeze. I slipped away into darkness...
And then abruptly opened my eyes again. The room was now dark, but I was certain only a few seconds had passed. It had been bright inside back then, the curtains before my windows open. Which they still were when I looked at them. Day had turned to night in an eyeblink, but I knew for a fact I wasn’t dreaming. I didn’t have the same feeling as the last time. Whatever that feeling had been. I was more alert now, conscious of my state of mind.
I sat up on the bed and looked around the room. There were no signs of the abomination that had haunted me the previous night. I carefully stood up, trying to be quiet, and gently eased the door open. It was dark, but I could still see.
I stepped into the hallway and walked a few meters until I could look into the kitchen. I froze, my muscles tensing. Horror filled me on the inside. I saw the abomination in there, its back facing towards me. Its left side was an unintelligible mass of flesh and bones. Its feet hung in the air, as its body floated, held up by nothing. I felt no magic radiating from it. It was a being from another world.
So I am dreaming again... Damn, I thought and recoiled as the thing suddenly turned its ugly head towards me. Its hollow eyes regarded me, but it said nothing. It instead rose an arm that pointed out of the window, motioning for me to come closer.
I stood, frozen to the spot, not knowing what to do. It was most likely a trap. But, then, this being a dream it wouldn’t matter. Maybe I would wake up if I approached it. And there was something else, too. An inner voice, speaking to me. I couldn’t understand it, but it was soothing. Calming.
Before I knew it I had taken a step forward, and then another. Soon I was standing next to the abomination, looking out the window. The abomination didn’t speak and didn’t look at me. It joined me in staring out the window. And twisted its mouth in a horrendous smile.
My breath was taken away at the sight. Outside, where buildings had once towered next to mine, where the streets had run intricate patterns far down below, and where the lights would lit up the darkness of night, there were now structures of the bizarre. It had the texture of flesh and colors that couldn’t exist. Shapes that my mind failed to comprehend. They dug into me, twisting me. It went on for miles and miles. I sunk to the floor, my knees faltering.
I felt misery, hopelessness and wonder. Tears formed in my eyes. I tried to wipe them away, but they wouldn’t stop. I still tried, and as I did, tilted my head upwards. I saw dark, spiralling things piercing the clouds in the sky. Thunder reigned around them, lighting up the world outside my window. And as I looked down again, I saw the masses of beings, creatures of the beyond crawling in the thousands along the streets.
This world is a dream, I reminded myself. But it didn’t help. Something kept pushing me down, from within. It was that voice again. But now I could understand it. The implication of its words made me shiver.
Your dream. Your reality. Beyond the Gate, with a Key. HE is here, and HE is the Key. HE is the Gate. HE is All-in-One, and One-in-All. Dreams and reality become one in HIS world. HIS world, your world, combined, connected.
And it was at that moment, as I was balancing on the edge of madness, that millions of voices screamed in unison inside my mind. I clutched my head from the indescribable pain, from the sheer madness, and fell to the floor, twisting in agony. I soon joined them with my scream of desperation. Pleading for help. Praying for it all to stop.
“HE has arrived,” the abomination whispered as I started to crawl on the floor, drooling and crying from my mind breaking in two. “HE has returned from the void. Your world is now HIS. All will join HIM.”
I stared at it, my vision clouded by pain and the madness of a whole world suffering from within. Behind the abomination, in the sky above us, I saw the clouds parting and HE descended. Transparent spheres and impossible shapes accompanied HIM. No logic, no sense. The definition of madness and the breaking of sanity.
HE then spoke to me, inside of me. HIS words, HIS voice. I knew that for me, and the millions of voices destroying my mind, sanity had become impossible. And my world had succumbed to madness.