its okay its not like its your fault or anything. I have had a lot of bad experiences in my life. in which I have closed a lot of my emotions and what not so things don't affect me as much. nor do I ever expose to much information that would allow anyone to hurt me. basically I only expose information I feel confortable in sharing. you can understand if their are any question you might ask and I don't outright tell is not because im being mean its more or less to protect myself.

they didn't care. it was the same way when I had to live a year with my relatives. while my parents and brother moved to florida first I was still in jersey going from different relative every week. living in the basement sleeping in boxes or out in the shed. that was my life for a whole year. I try not to think to much of my past since its not really that happy. so I try not to talk about it all that much

well my brother can get away with anything. basically when I used to play video games with him I had to lose or else he would get upset and ram the controller into my shin and sometimes breaking them. infact he has broken 7 N64 controlers on my shin and if I hit him back I got my ass kicked by my parents and was told it was my fault. my brother gets what ever he wants while I had to work for it. even with my mental disability I got shitting on even though I got out of special ed classes and was in normal classes making straight As I still got shitting on. I always had to clean the house before I could leave the house. my brother nearly failed high school and it was okay for him to do what ever he pleases.

they have been married now for 30 years and when ever they argue they always mention how its my fault they are even together. and they treat my brother way different than they treat me. and if my sister was still alive she would most likely be treated better too.

ah it would have been nice to have actual friends in real life. thanks for the sentiment

well as far as my family goes im the reason my parents got married. so im their big mistake.

as for my birthday it pasted already December 20th was my birthday.

im used to getting shitted on so it something ive learned to just except.

well thanks for being my friend

Thanks. But you k ow it is what it is. I have no friends in real life. As for family they cant ev3n remember my birthday or wh3n I was born. So that tells you sometbing there. But im us e d to it. Being shitted on is my purpose in life. 5o have negativity all 5he time surrounding me. Having people curse at you and look do2n on you and treat you like trash well thats my purpose In life.

for starters I shouldn't even be a live. and every day im a live is an insult to humanity. I am my parents biggest mistake something they admit that they wish I never existed. on t op of that I am half retarded. true fact just about all my schooling I had to go to special classes due to me being *quote on quote special* and im just a straight up piece of shit. I have always been told how worthless I am all my life and truth be told its true. if fi was to disappear one day no one would give 2 shits or even noticed I had disappeared

because in all honesty I am a loser and good for nothing lol. my worth is less than a cockroach. the crappiest person in the world, lower than trash.

Y...you also said you are scared of me...that hurt me too you know...even after all I do to help you

Okay but I didn't think you be back on AS.