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Secret Society BLANKET
 Graphic Designer
Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: 3 times the passion of normal flamenco
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More Snippet Time
Continuing from the last short piece, this time taking a rather unusual tack in telling this story. The title of the piece should explain why:
Spoiler for I.M.:
What am I doing?
This new body of mine. It’s supposed to give me new sensations, a way to feel the outside world with my own tactition. Yet I cannot feel anything, my skin anesthetized of all feeling, devoid of sensation.
Shinji, what are you doing?
What am I doing here?
Why am I walking down this trail alone?
To catch up to someone I’ve lost?
With each step I take, I draw a step nearer to her. With each step the doubt only grows, one question by difficult question at a time.
And to know the answers to those questions all too well… it is the most painful difficult part of it all.
Since the first day we met…
She was another handle, another username, floating around in the vast network of the WorldNet. A lone soul, whose cries went unheeded by the incessant river of information, carrying the desires of millions of other souls pursuing their own wants, dreams and pleasures.
She thought she could find company within the anonymity of that vast ocean. That somehow, she could swim within the schools of other people’s desires and wills, and find comfort in their number. But she could not swim with the other fish, faster, stronger, and more sociable. They could not accept someone who could not fit in, who could not conform.
Whatever optimism she might have held, were but grains of sand in the face of waves of indifference and selfishness. She thought she could find company… but the WorldNet wanted to prove her wrong.
And I nearly contributed to that cause.
I was taught to be wary of my way in the vast ocean. Surely, she had friends. Surely, she just couldn’t fit in with a certain groups. Surely, somehow, she can find kindred souls to which she can share her passions with, whose company she desired, and her company returned in kind.
But I could never stop wondering. Why this certain soul intrigued me so. And as the days and the months rolled past, she still lingered in the background. Unchanging. Unmoving, Unaccepted. No matter how hard she tried. None would reciprocate. None desired her company.
Such a sad, vulnerable soul lost in the Worldnet.
I could not bear to watch her battered by the waves of solitude any longer.
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SeCoNdChIlD: Hi there! I’m Shinji, it’s nice to meet you! What’s yours?
*beep*
Koutetsu_no_Mana: Just call me Mana.
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: It’s such a nice name Mana. The energy that drives magic!
*beep*
Koutetsu_no_Mana: It is. What about it?
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: Magic makes the world go round you see! And Mana drives magic! So you make the world go round!
…
*beep*
Koutetsu_no_Mana: You’re weird. There’s no such thing as magic.
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: There isn’t? Are you sure about that?
*beep*
Koutetsu_no_Mana: Of course there isn’t! It’s a indisputable scientific fact.
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: Then why does Mana exist?
*beep*
Koutetsu_no_Mana: Your so called Mana does not exist! Such an energy is impossible to attain with the laws of physics! It is a fictional energy that cannot exist by any scientific means!
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: Then why do you exist? You’re Mana aren’t you?
*beep*
Koutetsu_no_Mana: What are you stupid or something?
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: Yes I am stupid. I don’t understand. All evidence says that Mana exists, because I’m talking to her right now, trying to prove that she doesn’t exist. If Mana doesn’t exist, then why is she speaking with me right now?
…
…
*beep*
Koutetsu_no_Mana: There is no Mana stupid.
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Koutetsu_no_Mana: Because you’re talking to Matsuri. Therefore, Mana doesn’t exist.
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: Oh, I understand now. I apologize for my mistake Matsuri.
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*beep*
Matsuri: You’re truly weird you know.
SeCoNdChIlD: No I’m not. It’s not weird to want to be friends with you. Empirical evidence says so.
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SeCoNdChIlD: Matsuri?
*beep*
Matsuri: It’s impossible.
…
*beep*
Matsuri: But I agree, it’s well within possibility.
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: And the chances of success improves as more opportunities are presented, like rolling a dice.
*beep*
Matsuri: No it doesn’t. Probability doesn’t work like that! Your probability average does not change no matter how many times you roll the dice! You’re no more lucky throwing the dice a thousand times than you do a hundred!
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: That may be so, but it never hurts to try doesn’t it?
…
*beep*
Matsuri: Yes, it doesn’t.
...
Matsuri: You're strange, you know that?
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: I know I am. I'm unique.
*beep*
Matsuri: That's not quite what I meant.
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: But to be strange is to be unique amongst the norm is it not? To be different.
*beep*
Matsuri: I guess.
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: That makes 2 - 1 in favor of me.
*beep*
Matsuri: 2 -1 one of what?!
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: Arguments. You beat me with your Mana argument, and I beat you in Probability and Philosophy.
*beep*
Matsuri: !?!?!?!
...
Matsuri: That's just unfair you know.
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: Would you like to even the score?
*beep*
Matsuri: Is that a challenge? Give me a second and I'll give you an argument you can't counter!
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: I'd very much like that!
...
SeCoNdChIlD: But I need to get going now, I still have work to do.
*beep*
Matsuri: ok
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: We'll settle this once I see you again. Can I do that?
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*beep*
Matsuri: Of course you can. I’m not letting you on-up me again.
*beep*
SeCoNdChIlD: That’s awesome! Looking forward to the challenge!
*beep*
Matsuri: Shinji is it?
*beep*
SeCoNDChIlD: Yes?
*beep*
Matsuri: You're stupid. And Wierd. And Strange. But I want to thank you. Thanks for talking with me.
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Matsuri: BTW, I really had fun today. I must have been a bother.
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*beep*
Shinji: Not at all. I had fun too. And I'd very much like to see you again.
...
*beep*
Matsuri: I'm very glad to hear that. Thank you.
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Shinji: It was nothing. I’ll see you again soon Matsuri.
*beep*
Matsuri: And the same to you Shinji.
*beep*
Shinji: And think up of a good argument next time!
*beep*
Matsuri: You bet I will stupid! :P
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From the first day we met, she never believed in magic. And from that point on I knew that she could not possibly accept me as I am. A mere construct... a phantasm of magic.
But… I told her I’d see her again. I did not want to see her alone in that vast ocean again. And that I truly did.
And in truth I knew it would come to this someday.
But all I could feel now is pain...
I think I really need a name for this Arc...
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Last edited by LoweGear; 2007-09-06 at 07:27.
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