are you saying where you live
... people are under peer pressure to commit suicide
....
remind me to never live where you live!!!!
*EDIT* i think i gto into a big argument with mum and you know when parents just go ... yea go on then, like i care .. or you havent got the guts kind of thing .... well i endured all these comments from past arguemtns i mean we argue like 4 times a week minimum ... its better now
but one day we got into a fight about why i was getting bad grades at school and she blamed everything on the laptop .... first it was, if i came home early it was because i wanted to play on the laptop, next it was, if i was home on a weekend it was because of my obsession of going onlien and playing games and watching anime....
fight after fight we argued about the laptop until i finally decided to do somethign about it, i went out mroe often and GUESS WHAT, i go out TOO much ...
so then one day, i got a knife from the kitchen and said "fine, if you dont like the laptop so much, i'll break it" .. she said go on then .... i drove the knife through the keyboard (didnt do much damage cos i didnt want to break it really, just to scare her) .... and then she ran and took the laptop as if she didnt want me to. of course ic ould understand that it costs money and it was only said at the ehat of the arguement...
and then she started hurling abuse at me which i back chated pretty badly, she went through the move house phase, which was ok cos that came up in every argument, not to mention how many times she disowned me
but then she just said, i regret having you ... something about my father forced her to have it then the marriage didnt work out and they divorced in 2 years.. she claimed that if she could of, she would of aborted me, which kinda hurt ...
picked up the knife again and said fine, i'll die in front of you (insane moment) and she said, "do it" ...
done it on my right wrist only about 3 - 4mm deep, i was close to cutting that tendon thing that moves my hand thingy ... but yeah, im glad i didnt go all the way ... it didnt hurt tho ... now i have a 2 inch scar there and im ashameed to have it
