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Originally Posted by Satashi

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Spoiler for PornStar!Vivio pt. 40:

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Syn grinned lightly when her knock on Vivio's door was answered almost at once. The smell of crab cakes came at once and her stomach growled rather loudly from it. "Um, hi." She greeted the blond, who was trying to repress a smile. "Something smells good."

"I thought it might be easier to talk over dinner." Vivio closed the door behind the girl and helped her take off her coat before hanging it up in the closet along with the long green scarf that followed.

"You love food don't you?" Syn went to the kitchen and inspected everything. "Every time we've gotten together lately it's been with something to eat."

Vivio hummed while thinking on it. "True, but you're the one who loves food, Miss Chef."

With a grin, the blue haired girl handed Vivio a spatula to flip the hamburger sized creations that were pan frying. "So, you sounded pretty eager to have me come over tonight to talk about things?"

"Mmmhmm, but it can wait for now. How was your day? I want to hear about this new job of yours. The... third one since we met?"

Syn blushed at the words. "Well, in my defense, I was only fired once. I quit my second job because I was scouted for this one."

"Scouted?" Vivio began to plate the finished food and offered one to Syn. "What do you mean?"

Taking the platter, the girl walked to the living room to sit on the floor across from each other at the coffee table. "Someone heard about the new menu at Wanyuu's and came to test it. They always scolded me for changing their recipes but it turned out good for me. I was offered a job right then and there. Now I make about double what I did before... It's nice, I actually have money to blow on things now."

"Congratulations." The proud tone made the blue haired girl avert her attention to the rapidly diminishing meal. "I'm proud."

"Thanks." Syn stuffed her mouth and was about to ask for a drink when Vivio sat back down with the glass offered to her. "I didn't even ask."

"I know. You're a weird person who eats first and then drinks."

"Anyway," Syn gulped down half of her drink at once and sighed out when done. "About you now?"

Reaching over, Vivio took their plates and placed them into the kitchen before sitting next to Syn when the couch was claimed. "What do you want to know about it?" When Syn looked hesitant, she gave a soft smile. "Just say it. Really, I know you're not trying to offend me... Right?" The girl felt a small bit of happiness at Syn's hesitance to speak before thinking.

"Right." Syn nodded. "Bluntly, how often do you have sex?"

"Depends. No, really," She waved off the look. "Sometimes I don't do it for an entire month and sometimes it's every day for almost two weeks. It just depends."

"You've been in that many scenes?"

"No, it's... how to explain... You see, it's not actual sex. It's acting, as in they shoot a section of it and if they don't like it, you re-do it."

"Why wouldn't they like it?"

"My hair gets in the way a lot. Or if my arm blocks the view of my breasts, sometimes they want me to moan more."

Syn blinked. "Seriously? They make you stop and re-shoot for that?"

"Oh yes. Sometimes it can take almost three hours to do one scene, and sometimes we do it multiple times to do different angles. My last DVD had four different angles in it, so in order to not have cameramen in the background I actually had to do the scene four different times. It took about two weeks."

"Why not do it all in one day?"

"You try having sex for more than three hours and lets see how eager you are to do it again." Vivio groaned. "It's work, Syn. Really. It doesn't feel good, sometimes it actually hurts to keep going. your joints get stiff from positions and let's not even get into oral scenes. You wouldn't believe how many times I had to stop for the day because I just couldn't go on."

Syn face palmed. "You know, I could have gone the rest of my life not knowing you get lockjaw from sucking too many-"

"Syn!" Vivio blushed darkly. "I'm trying to be serious here." Reaching over, she took both of the girl's hands. "Please. Look at it from my viewpoint. Can you see that it's work and not fun?"

"I... guess..." She sighed. "I just... I know that I will have to see it to fully understand it but I can't watch you like that..."

"Want to start smaller?" Vivio asked softly, getting a small nod. "Sit here..." She gave the hands a squeeze and went to her bedroom. After a few moments she came back and sat down with a flash drive. "Here..."

"What's on it?" Syn took the small device and looked it over. "One of your storage drives for work?"

"No, I keep those organized by month and for personal/home. That is... the backup of all my home recordings."

"What do you mean?"

Vivio gave a lopsided smile. "I have a webpage, and I record myself for them. A few of those...well a lot actually... are me with guys but there are a ton of me solo."

Syn looked at it. "What are you doing in them?"

"Name it."

"Seriously?" Syn blinked.

"Er, yeah... but." She retook Syn's hands. "I want you to see it. I want you to see what I do. See that I do it as a job, that I don't just go mindlessly..." She lowered her voice and said a word that started the letter "F", as if she was going to be scolded for saying it by someone. "So... watch some?"

Syn shifted in her seat. "I don't really know if I'll enjoy seeing you do this."

"I hope you do." She grinned, trying to make it less awkward. Getting a smile back, she leaned forward and hugged her. "Syn, please try to understand me. If you can get used to this-"

"I'll try." Syn hugged her back, pulling her closer. "I can't promise you anything but I'll look at some of these... But please understand that it might-"

"Push you farther away, I know." Vivio leaned away and smiled as best she could. "I want you to know that I'm waiting to sign a contract to farther my career."

"Why?"

"I'm hesitant."

"Why?"

"Because of you." Syn opened her mouth to respond but Vivio kept going. "I know, Syn, I know. But I can't help but hesitate. I want to do everything I can to try and make this work. I won't put all of this on your shoulders, I will work at it as well. I promise."

Syn felt a warmth seep into her and pulled Vivio to her once more. "Vivio?"

"Yes?"

"...Your hair smells really nice."

"...Thank you." Vivio closed her eyes and smiled.

Spoiler for PornStar!Vivio pt.41:

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Syn brought her knees up and wrapped her arms around them, placing her chin on the kneecaps while watching her laptop screen. She was on her bed, watching a video of her ex girlfriend with a mixed look of interest and something that she couldn't quite place. A small sigh escaped her lips as the video ended and started auto playing the next scene. 'It's so strange...' she thought to herself while the blond on the screen began an oral act on someone she didn't know. 'I'm not disgusted but at the same time...' She could feel that her face was blushing so much that even her ears felt hot. 'I'm not really MAD but...' Syn moved to lay on her stomach, cushioning her head onto her arms. 'I'm... a little bit aroused but... at the same time I'm not... Vivio doesn't... have that look in her eyes that I'm so used to seeing...'

A sudden ringing of her cell phone made the girl almost scream out, hastily closing her laptop down to cut off the loud sounds coming from it. After allowing herself a moment to settle down, she picked up the phone and flipped it open. "Hey Mom."

"Hey sweetie, how are you?" Her mother's voice came sweetly through the receiver.

"I'm... a little confused honestly."

"Oh, why is that?"

Syn fell onto her back and looked up at the ceiling. "Remember that girl I told you about?"

"The pornography actor?"

"Yes, her... Well... I kind of started talking to her again." Her mother stayed silent, seeing what would follow before she gave her advice. "You see... I'm..."

When her daughter seemed to be struggling, Elena spoke up. "You still like her?"

"No, yes, I don't know..." Syn looked at the closed laptop. "I'm... I feel... angry. Sad, but not like before. It's... I just don't know, I want to strangle everyone who looks at her."

"You're jealous." Syn stayed silent a moment so the mother went on. "Are you mad at Vivio or the profession she's in now?" Syn opened her mouth but closed it before licking her lips to clear her mind. "As sweet as you told me she was," Elena continued, "I would assume she keep her personal life away from her professional life. It is the same way in the military, fighting and killing and then coming home to hug your little girl."

Syn felt the connection in her mind click. "Yeah, but... People with her-"

"Syn-sweetie, are you mad at her or not?"

"I'm..." She looked down. "I'm not mad at her anymore... I don't think I've forgiven her just yet but..."

"So you like her as a person."

"...Yes, mom, I really like her. I wouldn't put myself through this if I didn't." A hand went to rub the bridge of her nose. "I just..."

"Can you seperate her pesonal life from her job?"

"I honestly don't know."

"Have you ever heard 'Jump in cold turkey'?"

"What weird saying are you using now?" Syn rolled her eyes.

"It means to go in head first, to go all or broke."

"What are you telling me?"

Elena smiled. "See if you can deal with it before you go through all of this. If you get there, freak and spaz out, and can't do it, then you can call it quits. If you go through all this emotional stress and worry over it, only to accept her back but not be able to bear her profession, would you be happy?"

"...No."

"Then see what you can do. Find out what separates her from her job."

"... Thanks mom." Syn shook her head. "I'm sorry, I went off on my own problems, what are you calling for?"

Elena's voice suddenly got really happy. "I found the cutest dress and I wanted to see if you would wear it-"

"No. Goodbye mom." Syn smiled and flipped her phone shut as her mom laughed. "I swear, I'm not a dress up doll..." Her hand went back to the laptop before stopping to hover above it. 'Maybe... I should watch these with her. To see how comfortable we are about it.... Yeah, I'll do that.' Her phone was opened again and she pressed Vivio's speed dial, only to get her voice mail. 'I wonder where she is?' Her phone was closed without leaving a message. 'I'll go out and get dinner and then call again.'

Syn made her way to her door, grabbing a jacket and putting it on before stepping into the outside world. A small envelope in the mailbox next to her door made her stop briefly to pluck it out. 'What? It's from Vivio?' The letter was opened and she had to catch a large shining purple ticket that fell from it. Her vision went to it first, reading it in her mind. 'Special V.I.P. guest pass from Eyes.' She blinked and looked at the letter.

Syn,

I'm working on Watersday this week at a club known as Peaches. I'll be pole dancing and stripping as well as private shows in the champagne room. I was going to ask if you wanted to come watch me work but I thought asking in person might pressure you into saying yes so I mailed this. It would mean a lot to me if you came to see me. I want you to see my job and let you know what I do, how I work. This ticket will get you past the line at the door, just show it to the bouncer and you'll be brought to the stage side seating. Free drinks and even food, just show this ticket. It's at seven at night.

-Love,
Vivio/ Eyes


Syn re-read the letter and groaned. 'That's tonight, that stupid girl.' A look at her watch made her realize that Vivio's act would start within the next two hours. 'I don't even know how to get to that club.' The letter was re-folded but she stopped when she say a map drawn on the back of it. After staring at it for several long moments, she let out a pleased, amused smile. 'I'd need a GPS navigation system to understand this map...

Wise words from Elena. I like how she tried to get Syn to dress up. Good chapter to see where Syn is at in this whole ordeal and how she's slowly accepting it. She said it herself, she likes Vivio as a person, and she doesn't have the same 'look' in her eyes in the videos. Well we'll see what happens at the strip club...if Syn can even find her way there.