Deconstructing Yayoi
I had some down time at work today so i have been re watching the episodes but only the scenes involving Yayoi because her character really bothers me, her motivations her state of mind everything about her. What i tried to do was watch her mannerisms, what she says more than what she actually does and try to pull something from the little we know about her.
When the whole situation with Yayoi and Touya began i think it truly was business after all Yayoi barely new Touya crushing a collage and bullying him would be easy by using a weapon all women are born with their sexuality. However, i feel its changed over time after all spending time with people changes you and even an ice queen might actually has a heart and needs under the frost.
We never see Yayoi with any other people in her private life which is not surprsing since her work is her life. With the exception of reading an occassional book and having coffee (at the same place Touya works Echos) we see nothing else of her. Right now i think Yayoi has discovered a way to relieve her frustrations and loneliness without actually straying from her initial purpose of supporting Yuki. So far the only emotion and it was ever so slight that we have seen has been her interacting with Touya. The one thing i can see in Yayoi's eyes is her lonliness it obvious everytime she is shown. Those eyes devoid of life face like a piece of marble never changing she seems lifeless like a doll. A sever case of loneliness and detachment from emotion or interpersonal relationships would cause these traits. I realized that Yayoi is someone that Rina could become if given enough time say 5 or 6 years down the road.
In her mind what she is doing with Touya is for Yuki's sake but deep down does Yayoi feel she has found a kindred spirit? If she thinks this way in her mind there is no conflict of interest its effectivly killing two birds with one stone. She also knows that her secret is safe because Touya doesnt have the ballz to face Yuki. Silence is golden and information is power and Yayoi has both with Touya.
The change is ever so sudden over time and it might be missed becasue we always focused on other events surrounding the two. I cant say that Yayoi actually likes Touya but he is a way for her momentarily to have comfort and control while still doing her job its a sweet little arrangement. However,i do think on some level Yayoi thinks of Touya as HERS similar to how the band members were teasing Touya about being Rina's pet. Also, i feel her time with Touya is also responsible for part of her stance and very aggressive attitude towards Rina in episode 11. I kept wondering why it felt like Yayoi was protecting her turf and that turf would be Touya since Touya spends majority of his time with Rina now.
Im not sure if my theories are sound but after deconstructing her with the limited information we have this is what iv come up with. She has combined her job with her possible growing attachment to Touya they are one in the same now. I would bet money if Touya broke things off but the situation with him and Yuki stayed stagnant she would still initiate contact with him. That smile and kiss after she licked Touya's tears did not seem like a malicious one but it felt more like a smile of someone who could make her for a time forget the stalker, her loneliness and her past mistakes. Just as much as Touya is using her as a distraction she is using him as well and with his recent break down in the car Yayoi went to solidify his reliance on her by using physical means. She effectively made a move while Touya was at his most vulnerable which will only deepen the feeling he has to see and be near her even if he does not love her. Feelings are very tricky but Yayoi is obviously holding on to Touya tightly and its not just for her job if that was the case she would not keep seeing him since her primary goal has already been accomplished Touya and Yuki are not seeing each other and will not for a good while.
What do you guys think?
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