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ChibiDusk · 2004-03-25, 20:37

Do you ever feel...so frustrated to the point of crying? So frustrated at every little detail in life, and there is nothing you can do about, no one to talk to...because it would just add to your problems? Do you ever feel like just to much is balled up inside and when you try to do something about it - you can't?

I do...

This may just be my rantings but this is the only thing I can do. At the point of me writing this, I feel so frustrated that I want to smash this computer, and holding it in isn't helping a bit. I feel this twisted gut wrenching feeling in my stomach. Like someones hand is clenching and pulling. I feel like im about to puke.

My best friend, gets tormented at school beyond the point of anything you've seen. Well maybe not as bad as somethings. But I wonder how she can stand it? She can't walk anywhere without everyone staring and calling her a freak. She gets made fun of behind her back, and I can't do anything about it, or they'll do it to me. In class she isn't doing so well because shes more focused on avoiding the insults then paying attention. But she does ok.

I have another friend, she is getting bullied in the locker rooms at school by another girl. She is trying to do something, asking for help from the teachers but they keep delaying the help. She works hard she is very stressted. I don't think she can hold it in any longer.

My third friend, who is a guy, used to go out with another one of my friends [a girl]. This girl is, well, not so liked. We recently found out he was gay, and the girl still doesn't believe it, she's in denile because deep down she knows its the only real relationship she ever had a chance at. So now shes concentrating on internet relationshop, which we all know...well...I won't say it.

This girl was adopted, her parents who adopted her have no time for her. She is ignored by them so she sits down in the basement on the computer all day talking to her internet boyfriend. She ignores homework and is horribly failing. She also has mental issues. I am not joking around.

Then there are some friends who looked depressed, all the time. I try to help. But they refuse with "nothings wrong". Some even get upset for me asking. It makes me feel bad that I cannot do anything. I am just able to look at their faces and see the feelings deep down. I feel like crying.

Everyone has problems. No one will help. No one will no matter what they say. I ask you, what's wrong with humans? Do they care about anything?

What can I do...I feel so helpless.

ChibiDusk · 2004-03-25, 20:45

Also I forgot to add.
The girl I was telling you about, the one with the internet boyfriend, told on msn, my aunt that I was gay. My aunt isn't so stable. She calls my grandmother and tell her. My grandmother is fully beyong the normal level religious. She refuses to celebrate any holidays, expecially christmas since it is not the correct birth of jesus. She even wrote on her car when my mom was little "jesus loves us all", scratched into the paint. That gives you an idea of how she is. So she calls me up, I still not knowing the girl told my aunt, and says "dont worry I will still talk to you". We then later get a call from my aunt telling she told this. UG! Why do people spread rumors before confirming it?

Then we find out, ALL 3 sets of my aunts and uncles are breaking up and seperating the kids. The aunt that told my grandmother the rumor I was gay admitted that, while she was at out house, she was doing crack in the bathroom. Sje also sold her computer to buy drugs. The kids were taken away from her by the father.

MY family is corrupt.

Prince of Chronics · 2004-03-25, 20:51

yo... that sounds like some serious issues you have to deal with... I say you take your mind off of that shit and make graphics or whatever the hell you do.... cuz straight up... you really don't want to dwell on your probs and get all depressed.... that stuff is not good for kids... let your professors know that your friends are being bullied... that shit may seem weak... but you have every right to let your profs know about this kind of activity... you don't want you or your buddies to do regrettable actions in the future...

my 2cents...

ChibiDusk · 2004-03-25, 20:54

...We've told them.
We either get the reply "don't be a tadler", "deal with your own issues",
or they delaying their "help"

Lexander · 2004-03-25, 21:01

Hmmm this may sounds strange but I've noticed that going to the teachers and the office makes matters even worse. They usually don't take it seriously enough and do something stupid like "Everybody stop picking on her, it's not nice. The next person that does it gets dettention and I mean it mister" Then if the bullies are popular, they automatically brand your friend as a snitch and influence others to pick on her too. And you're right, the schools usually don't even care enough to act on it. They have their stupid minibeaurocracy set up and a kid, especially your age, isn't enough reason to actually do something.
Middle school and highschool are really quite brutal, and they can crush a persons spirit if you're not sly enough. Kids can be really cruel.

RichMan · 2004-03-25, 21:12

Be strong. Your friends have problems, but the thing about life is that you have to live through the good times and the bad times.

Biohazard · 2004-03-25, 21:24

Well ... i think i might be able to feel a bit like you feel ... in school it's me and 3 others that are getting insulted by "fellow" classmates all the time, worse is that the teachers insult you too. So if you go to the teachers and tell them your problems they start yelling at you how stupid and weak you are ... so no help there.

I really often feel like that ... even right now ... i feel very lonely and ... plain sad ... i feel like crying .. .but i can't cry ... because i fear that it could wake my mother ... who is sleeping in a room next to mine ... and i just can't bring myself to show any weakness in front of my mother ... i distrust my mother... very.

I don't talk with her ... only as much as necessary, and thats like 3 sentences per day, and i am really happy that it isn't more... she ... doesn't try to understand me and belives in what she belives is right...

If i would tell her ... about me, my problems ... she would probably send me in a psychiatry ... and if she knew how weak i am in the inside ... she would use that knowledge against me ... to hurt me ... to make me do stuff that i think is wrong...

She always forces me to things ... and pushes me around .... takes drugs too and all ...

My mother ... and the way i am ... rendered me to always be the target for insults and all that for the last 12 years. Since i entered school.

The reason is because my mother threats me differently then other parents... she never gave me any money to buy clothes i like ... she always went to buy my clothes herself ... and i ended up wearing some ugly stuff where everyone says im hardly outdated, look uncool ect.
And my poket money was never enough to buy clothes ...
I myself think it is wrong to change your true feelings about something for a group ...

I often use this example, but ... music ... if you don't like the music the gang likes ... you'r a target for them. Since everyone sticks with the music favor of the gang , to look cool, and be a part of them ... they say they like it too and it is great and all .... i always thought differently, and said what i think open minded ... so i made everyone in class to my enemy, since they are a large group forcing to belive, and i'm a small struggler against them.... if i were to go to the teachers earlier ... they said like "This has to stop"
But because i'm the only one who could complain, they knew it, and picked on me even more.

There has never been any way for me out of that, and when my mother decides to move, i lost all the few friends i had. In this remote villages i still havnt found a friend after many years ... all i see in the people here is evil ... they take drugs, steal, throw stones in windows ... and ... use force if necessary ...

And again i refuse to become an underling of an group, and sacrificing my own ways and decisions.... and that ... makes everyone my enemy...

It's not like that i'm overly stubborn ... its just that i don't lie about my feelings to something...

bootleg · 2004-03-25, 21:26

Whenever you feel down, always try to keep a positive state of mind. Always try to remember that in a couple of months, something like this is going to be the last thing in your mind. Your only true friends are your families, don't expect the same from friends. Ish happens......

Slade · 2004-03-25, 21:28

High school life isn't the real world- you'll get out of there in a few years and when you're done with college and you finally move out on your own, that's when the real world will really hit you.

Everyone has problems. You, your friends and everyone else in the world has problems.... Sure, it sucks when everything is falling apart and you believe that the world as you know is it crumbling down. The truth is, no matter what kind of misfortune befalls upon you, the next day will come. Things change of course, you can either choose to adapt yourself or adapt your enviornment.

Most people change themselves when things change so they can fit themselves back into a picture they call "life", but those that cannot take it, flee and run away. It could be that you run out of your room, it could be you run out of your town, but in the end you'll end up in a positon filled only with regret.

You have to realize that you have no control over other people, the way that they lead their lives, the way they think... there is no way you can control that. No matter how much you may want to help someone... with all your heart and soul, wish as you may... sometimes, you just can't.

If I were in your shoes though, I'd take care of any person that mess with my friends. One of the oaths I've made in my life includs not hitting a woman, but protecting the people precise to me comes before all else. Don't bother with the teachers, take care of it yourself.

I suggest you bite the bullet... you're too young to have the ability to do otherwise. Going on the internet for advise is fine but I suggest not posting for sympathy, it'll drag you down deeper into your sorrow.

Roots · 2004-03-25, 21:31

I've gone through the same sort of feelings, but it wasn't really because everyone else had problems it was because I did. I felt all those 'little things' accumulating and making me increasingly frustrated. I also had a semester where I found out my 14 year old cousin was pregnant and on drugs, my parents were getting a divorce, and my grandfather had a stroke.

Your just going through some bad times right now, that's all. I know you want to help your friends, but to do that they have to want to help themselves too. Why don't you try joining some clubs or a sports team or something? Usually people brand you as something you aren't because they don't know you. Once I joined cross country in high school, I made a lot of really good friends and thoroughly enjoyed my life.

So in other words, don't bother helping any of your friends that won't even try to help themselves. You can't burden everyone else's problems, its just too much for a single human being to handle. The burden of your own life is more than enough for you to carry, but of course its nice to help others out along the way.

Damn, I feel wise

FinFangFoom · 2004-03-25, 21:32

Man that sucks. I wish I had wisdom to share on this issue but unfortunatly I've been in your position in some respects before, and didn't do much myself. Fortunately my friend who was being picked on parents stepped in and talked to the principle and the problem ended there.

Maybe that's the solution. I don't know if things work differently in Canada, but do your friend's parents know what's going on at school? If their parents go in and threaten to go to the school board if nothings done, that will certainly guarantee the cooperation of the faculty. If that doesn't work the parents should really go to the school board.

ChibiDusk · 2004-03-25, 21:37

Well half of the parents don't listen, don't care, or ignore it and refuse to believe its happening.

mantidor · 2004-03-25, 21:46

Quote:

Originally Posted by ChibiDusk

Everyone has problems. No one will help. No one will no matter what they say. I ask you, what's wrong with humans? Do they care about anything?

Do they care??? don't you mean do WE care?? and for what i've read you actually care, and i'm pretty sure you are not alone.

the world its full of people, and WE all are good and bad persons, its human nature sadly...

anyway, here some of us care about what you've said, so you shouldn't feel that lonely...

Prince of Chronics · 2004-03-25, 21:55

damn... it's a shame that teachers don't care enough to stop bullying at school....... straight up, if it were their kids I'm pretty they would deal with the matter immediately..... that really is too bad that you can't even seek help from your teacher...

Serendipity · 2004-03-25, 21:57

Sounds like you have had a lot to deal with lately, I am sorry to hear that, really I am....I am not quite sure what to say......I agree with the comments and stuff above though....

As soon as you tell a teacher they talk to the bullies and the bullies ALWAYS know that it was you that dobbed....and they immediately begin to harrass you even more....

I just can't get over how nasty kids are these days though....

Your family sounds like it is falling apart at the seams....all of your cousins are going to have a really hard time... I am not sure if there is any way to avoid all of this that is happening either...

Whatever you do, and I know that this is going to sound ridiculous, because it always does when it comes out of my mouth, but you need to try and block out the depression....it's awful in your situation, but you have to try and make sure that it doesn't eat you up.....

Cammie · 2004-03-25, 21:58

Chibi- maybe you should just worry about you... I know its hard to see your friends suffer. There is only so much you can do! Just be there when they need you and give advice when they ask for it. What I have learned from the past is.. listening and comforting someone is better than saying anything at all.

Take Richman advice.

As for your family, well... its the family grapevine (gossip). Every family goes through this drama!! I should know.... argh! don't worry it will eventually die down.

aFlipGuy · 2004-03-25, 22:20

well they're not doing thier job

who said life was easy, life is a game, easy to lose but really hard to get back up

Jinto · 2004-03-25, 22:24

You can not do much except giving moral support, when the teachers do not care about this problem or just do it wrong. The same goes for your family... well there you must be carefull, don't interfere too much.

Lst2touchdasky · 2004-03-25, 22:27

just answering you question:
Life is they way it is because you really fucked up in your last life and now your repenting for your sins

The most twisted things in life are people, but everything chages in time: for now all the hard parts are just to make everything else easier and to make the rare sucsess sweet as heaven. And if all else fails you: there is always soda.

What doesnt kill you can only make you stronger: HANG IN THERE CHIBI!

ChibiDusk · 2004-03-25, 22:37

Thanks for all your replies, and your support and answers.
I really apprecaite it. My family has slowly fallen apart during the last few years.
I'm glad there are still sane people in the world who care, it seems everyone now of days wants to be kewl so they follow the closest example.
Anyways, thanks.

2004-03-25, 20:37	Link #1
ChibiDusk Back From The Dead? Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Canada Age: 34	Why is life...the way it is? Do you ever feel...so frustrated to the point of crying? So frustrated at every little detail in life, and there is nothing you can do about, no one to talk to...because it would just add to your problems? Do you ever feel like just to much is balled up inside and when you try to do something about it - you can't? I do... This may just be my rantings but this is the only thing I can do. At the point of me writing this, I feel so frustrated that I want to smash this computer, and holding it in isn't helping a bit. I feel this twisted gut wrenching feeling in my stomach. Like someones hand is clenching and pulling. I feel like im about to puke. My best friend, gets tormented at school beyond the point of anything you've seen. Well maybe not as bad as somethings. But I wonder how she can stand it? She can't walk anywhere without everyone staring and calling her a freak. She gets made fun of behind her back, and I can't do anything about it, or they'll do it to me. In class she isn't doing so well because shes more focused on avoiding the insults then paying attention. But she does ok. I have another friend, she is getting bullied in the locker rooms at school by another girl. She is trying to do something, asking for help from the teachers but they keep delaying the help. She works hard she is very stressted. I don't think she can hold it in any longer. My third friend, who is a guy, used to go out with another one of my friends [a girl]. This girl is, well, not so liked. We recently found out he was gay, and the girl still doesn't believe it, she's in denile because deep down she knows its the only real relationship she ever had a chance at. So now shes concentrating on internet relationshop, which we all know...well...I won't say it. This girl was adopted, her parents who adopted her have no time for her. She is ignored by them so she sits down in the basement on the computer all day talking to her internet boyfriend. She ignores homework and is horribly failing. She also has mental issues. I am not joking around. Then there are some friends who looked depressed, all the time. I try to help. But they refuse with "nothings wrong". Some even get upset for me asking. It makes me feel bad that I cannot do anything. I am just able to look at their faces and see the feelings deep down. I feel like crying. Everyone has problems. No one will help. No one will no matter what they say. I ask you, what's wrong with humans? Do they care about anything? What can I do...I feel so helpless.

2004-03-25, 20:51	Link #3
Prince of Chronics One Piece fan Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Toronto, Canada	yo... that sounds like some serious issues you have to deal with... I say you take your mind off of that shit and make graphics or whatever the hell you do.... cuz straight up... you really don't want to dwell on your probs and get all depressed.... that stuff is not good for kids... let your professors know that your friends are being bullied... that shit may seem weak... but you have every right to let your profs know about this kind of activity... you don't want you or your buddies to do regrettable actions in the future... my 2cents... __________________ MyAnimeList page

2004-03-25, 21:55	Link #14
Prince of Chronics One Piece fan Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Toronto, Canada	damn... it's a shame that teachers don't care enough to stop bullying at school....... straight up, if it were their kids I'm pretty they would deal with the matter immediately..... that really is too bad that you can't even seek help from your teacher... __________________ MyAnimeList page

2004-03-25, 21:58	Link #16
Cammie Smooth and Curvy... Join Date: Jun 2003	Chibi- maybe you should just worry about you... I know its hard to see your friends suffer. There is only so much you can do! Just be there when they need you and give advice when they ask for it. What I have learned from the past is.. listening and comforting someone is better than saying anything at all. Take Richman advice. As for your family, well... its the family grapevine (gossip). Every family goes through this drama!! I should know.... argh! don't worry it will eventually die down. Last edited by Cammie; 2004-03-25 at 22:17.

2004-03-25, 22:24	Link #18
Jinto Asuki-tan Kairin ↓ Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: Fürth (GER) Age: 43	You can not do much except giving moral support, when the teachers do not care about this problem or just do it wrong. The same goes for your family... well there you must be carefull, don't interfere too much. __________________ Folding@Home, Team Animesuki

2004-03-25, 20:45	Link #2
ChibiDusk Back From The Dead? Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Canada Age: 34	Also I forgot to add. The girl I was telling you about, the one with the internet boyfriend, told on msn, my aunt that I was gay. My aunt isn't so stable. She calls my grandmother and tell her. My grandmother is fully beyong the normal level religious. She refuses to celebrate any holidays, expecially christmas since it is not the correct birth of jesus. She even wrote on her car when my mom was little "jesus loves us all", scratched into the paint. That gives you an idea of how she is. So she calls me up, I still not knowing the girl told my aunt, and says "dont worry I will still talk to you". We then later get a call from my aunt telling she told this. UG! Why do people spread rumors before confirming it? Then we find out, ALL 3 sets of my aunts and uncles are breaking up and seperating the kids. The aunt that told my grandmother the rumor I was gay admitted that, while she was at out house, she was doing crack in the bathroom. Sje also sold her computer to buy drugs. The kids were taken away from her by the father. MY family is corrupt.

2004-03-25, 20:54	Link #4
ChibiDusk Back From The Dead? Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Canada Age: 34	...We've told them. We either get the reply "don't be a tadler", "deal with your own issues", or they delaying their "help"

2004-03-25, 21:01	Link #5
Lexander www.thefestlanders.com Join Date: Dec 2003	Hmmm this may sounds strange but I've noticed that going to the teachers and the office makes matters even worse. They usually don't take it seriously enough and do something stupid like "Everybody stop picking on her, it's not nice. The next person that does it gets dettention and I mean it mister" Then if the bullies are popular, they automatically brand your friend as a snitch and influence others to pick on her too. And you're right, the schools usually don't even care enough to act on it. They have their stupid minibeaurocracy set up and a kid, especially your age, isn't enough reason to actually do something. Middle school and highschool are really quite brutal, and they can crush a persons spirit if you're not sly enough. Kids can be really cruel.

2004-03-25, 21:12	Link #6
RichMan ???? Join Date: Jan 2004	Be strong. Your friends have problems, but the thing about life is that you have to live through the good times and the bad times.

2004-03-25, 21:24	Link #7
Biohazard -kanashii~desu- Join Date: May 2003 Location: Germany Age: 38	Well ... i think i might be able to feel a bit like you feel ... in school it's me and 3 others that are getting insulted by "fellow" classmates all the time, worse is that the teachers insult you too. So if you go to the teachers and tell them your problems they start yelling at you how stupid and weak you are ... so no help there. I really often feel like that ... even right now ... i feel very lonely and ... plain sad ... i feel like crying .. .but i can't cry ... because i fear that it could wake my mother ... who is sleeping in a room next to mine ... and i just can't bring myself to show any weakness in front of my mother ... i distrust my mother... very. I don't talk with her ... only as much as necessary, and thats like 3 sentences per day, and i am really happy that it isn't more... she ... doesn't try to understand me and belives in what she belives is right... If i would tell her ... about me, my problems ... she would probably send me in a psychiatry ... and if she knew how weak i am in the inside ... she would use that knowledge against me ... to hurt me ... to make me do stuff that i think is wrong... She always forces me to things ... and pushes me around .... takes drugs too and all ... My mother ... and the way i am ... rendered me to always be the target for insults and all that for the last 12 years. Since i entered school. The reason is because my mother threats me differently then other parents... she never gave me any money to buy clothes i like ... she always went to buy my clothes herself ... and i ended up wearing some ugly stuff where everyone says im hardly outdated, look uncool ect. And my poket money was never enough to buy clothes ... I myself think it is wrong to change your true feelings about something for a group ... I often use this example, but ... music ... if you don't like the music the gang likes ... you'r a target for them. Since everyone sticks with the music favor of the gang , to look cool, and be a part of them ... they say they like it too and it is great and all .... i always thought differently, and said what i think open minded ... so i made everyone in class to my enemy, since they are a large group forcing to belive, and i'm a small struggler against them.... if i were to go to the teachers earlier ... they said like "This has to stop" But because i'm the only one who could complain, they knew it, and picked on me even more. There has never been any way for me out of that, and when my mother decides to move, i lost all the few friends i had. In this remote villages i still havnt found a friend after many years ... all i see in the people here is evil ... they take drugs, steal, throw stones in windows ... and ... use force if necessary ... And again i refuse to become an underling of an group, and sacrificing my own ways and decisions.... and that ... makes everyone my enemy... It's not like that i'm overly stubborn ... its just that i don't lie about my feelings to something...

2004-03-25, 21:26	Link #8
bootleg Member Join Date: Mar 2004	Whenever you feel down, always try to keep a positive state of mind. Always try to remember that in a couple of months, something like this is going to be the last thing in your mind. Your only true friends are your families, don't expect the same from friends. Ish happens......

2004-03-25, 21:28	Link #9
Slade Coordinated Insanity Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Between Good & Evil	High school life isn't the real world- you'll get out of there in a few years and when you're done with college and you finally move out on your own, that's when the real world will really hit you. Everyone has problems. You, your friends and everyone else in the world has problems.... Sure, it sucks when everything is falling apart and you believe that the world as you know is it crumbling down. The truth is, no matter what kind of misfortune befalls upon you, the next day will come. Things change of course, you can either choose to adapt yourself or adapt your enviornment. Most people change themselves when things change so they can fit themselves back into a picture they call "life", but those that cannot take it, flee and run away. It could be that you run out of your room, it could be you run out of your town, but in the end you'll end up in a positon filled only with regret. You have to realize that you have no control over other people, the way that they lead their lives, the way they think... there is no way you can control that. No matter how much you may want to help someone... with all your heart and soul, wish as you may... sometimes, you just can't. If I were in your shoes though, I'd take care of any person that mess with my friends. One of the oaths I've made in my life includs not hitting a woman, but protecting the people precise to me comes before all else. Don't bother with the teachers, take care of it yourself. I suggest you bite the bullet... you're too young to have the ability to do otherwise. Going on the internet for advise is fine but I suggest not posting for sympathy, it'll drag you down deeper into your sorrow.

2004-03-25, 21:31	Link #10
Roots 外人、漫画訳者 Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Austin, TX Age: 41	I've gone through the same sort of feelings, but it wasn't really because everyone else had problems it was because I did. I felt all those 'little things' accumulating and making me increasingly frustrated. I also had a semester where I found out my 14 year old cousin was pregnant and on drugs, my parents were getting a divorce, and my grandfather had a stroke. Your just going through some bad times right now, that's all. I know you want to help your friends, but to do that they have to want to help themselves too. Why don't you try joining some clubs or a sports team or something? Usually people brand you as something you aren't because they don't know you. Once I joined cross country in high school, I made a lot of really good friends and thoroughly enjoyed my life. So in other words, don't bother helping any of your friends that won't even try to help themselves. You can't burden everyone else's problems, its just too much for a single human being to handle. The burden of your own life is more than enough for you to carry, but of course its nice to help others out along the way. Damn, I feel wise

2004-03-25, 21:37	Link #12
ChibiDusk Back From The Dead? Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Canada Age: 34	Well half of the parents don't listen, don't care, or ignore it and refuse to believe its happening.

2004-03-25, 21:57	Link #15
Serendipity Senior Member Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Konoha Village Age: 37	Sounds like you have had a lot to deal with lately, I am sorry to hear that, really I am....I am not quite sure what to say......I agree with the comments and stuff above though.... As soon as you tell a teacher they talk to the bullies and the bullies ALWAYS know that it was you that dobbed....and they immediately begin to harrass you even more.... I just can't get over how nasty kids are these days though.... Your family sounds like it is falling apart at the seams....all of your cousins are going to have a really hard time... I am not sure if there is any way to avoid all of this that is happening either... Whatever you do, and I know that this is going to sound ridiculous, because it always does when it comes out of my mouth, but you need to try and block out the depression....it's awful in your situation, but you have to try and make sure that it doesn't eat you up.....

2004-03-25, 22:20	Link #17
aFlipGuy Master Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: A-town Age: 38	well they're not doing thier job who said life was easy, life is a game, easy to lose but really hard to get back up

2004-03-25, 22:27	Link #19
Lst2touchdasky Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Phoenix,AZ Age: 36	just answering you question: Life is they way it is because you really fucked up in your last life and now your repenting for your sins The most twisted things in life are people, but everything chages in time: for now all the hard parts are just to make everything else easier and to make the rare sucsess sweet as heaven. And if all else fails you: there is always soda. What doesnt kill you can only make you stronger: HANG IN THERE CHIBI!

2004-03-25, 22:37	Link #20
ChibiDusk Back From The Dead? Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Canada Age: 34	Thanks for all your replies, and your support and answers. I really apprecaite it. My family has slowly fallen apart during the last few years. I'm glad there are still sane people in the world who care, it seems everyone now of days wants to be kewl so they follow the closest example. Anyways, thanks.